Friday, July 15, 2005
Feeling quite troubled this few days! dunnoe if my decision is right or wrong?tried to die before but it didn't help! i taken lots and lots of panadol but it doesn't helpmy father thought i commit suicide is because i have broken up with someone..he was wrongi did it because i was just too troubled with things...dunnoe what to do! feel so lost now...hoping someone could help me!haiz..dun understand why troubles are always looking for me?must i suffer so much?must i torture myself so much?well well forget it.dun wish to say.the doctor have been asking me to operate on my heart. but they dun understand mei know the chance of success is very low. i dun wish to risk my life in it! i wan to live longermy cousin and me have heart problems! so we know what we wan.so no operations plswe both dun wan to risk our life it this operation. so no matter what..stop asking usyou doctor reali pissed us off okay!i believe no one would wan to die inside there...we both reali dun wish to follow in our grandmother footsteps.she trust you allbut what happen?you doctor fail to save her from the operation room.. wth!though we know its concern the heart too but you all say you were confidenthow can you all like this??? thats so evil le bah!haiz..not going to trust you all anymoreHmm... but maybe if i die, i would be able to see my grandmother.that will be niceall of the cousins dreamt about her but why not me?i hate myself for thati reali hope that i will be able to dream about you!cause i miss you too much le.i know you dote on me the most but pls grant my wish bah! i wan to tok to you and see youi truly got alot of things to say to you lor!things between we cousins and lots moreafter you left, all of us have been drifted apart!we no longer united anymore..kai li and kathy went worse.i was inside of course. but rachael and aaron is following usi dun wish that they follow in our footsteps.. i wan to help but i dunnoe how??well.. forget it bah! looks like i have to think everything by myself!but i still hope to see you
2:10 PM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Hmm.. not feeling happy this few days! my cousins giving me some trouble again..
hope kai li can be more sensible abit bah!dun abit abit divorce lahx...not worth it de lor
i admit chris is not a good guy but try to stick together can!you giving trouble to ppl
all the aunties and uncles and we cousins are worried for you..we dun wan you get hurt
though they say they dun care you but thats not the truth!i believe they still care about u de...
even if they dun care,still got we cousins to care for you right!so pls...dun make us worried.
haiz well well forget it.School has been sux all along! and its because of some retard ppl
sumone say"some ppl dunnoe whats the meaning of cheap"wtf lor..we nv do anything
and so what if you apologise?we will not forgive you okay!any how scold us...so fucking idiot
and you think you very big is it?give you the right to scold us...stop your nonsense.
or else you suffer the consequences yourself! i will not let you off de...
Joan and me will not forgive you anymore wan okay! cause you totally sux...stupid idiot
and so what if you smoke and stuff??do you think its great?no is not.
you are just harming yourself!i know i once smoke too..but i quit le..cause it harm my health
since you wan to harm yourself den go ahead!i not going to care about you anymore
and pls stop scolding us for nothing okay!cause we are not for you to scold
6:55 PM
Friday, July 08, 2005
shall blog about yesterday first...Hmm..........
it was bad for me lah! first i got caught for not sewing my belt, than after,i got caught for my hair
wtf is this lah! getting caught almost the whole day! get caught by miss martens too....well well
guess maybe my luck wasn't good tats why! Pe was the most fun...That teacher totally rawks
he taught us many funny funny tatics to do pe! though it was lame but its fun... hahaxx...
guess the whole class was laughing bah!hahaxx.... wel.i got nothing to sae too! sk was being so stupid moron can! fancy calling us cheapskate!wth lor....we did not do anything to her
and she just scold us! its rather bad luck...haiz..thats so fucking idiotic man
well shall blog todae!
nothing much lor...but this morning when i woke up my heart was damm painful can
but lucky its not so bad le! yup...do f&n till i went crazy! hahaxx.....i did not eat for recess and lunch! this shows that i am very hard working! hahaxx....
5:24 PM
