Saturday, April 29, 2006

Been crying since the dae
the dae euu went away.
ytd wasn't moii day..ii seriously hate ytd lahx.
ii simply hate everythng right now..haiix
why everything just go so wrong.ii hate myself
ii wish ii'm dead right now.without knowing anything
ytd at night recieve your msg.ii feel so sad
ii didn't noe what tuhh do..ii was so confused.haiix
ii will breakdown sooner or later.haiix
ii'm trying tuhh let go..but will ii succeed?ii dunnoe too
ii'm so tired of crying and cutting furr euu.haiix
seeing the scars on moii hand makes miie think back.
think of all the happy moments we have.haiix
baby if ii have another chance given miie..
ii swear ii will treasure it like hell..haiix
anyway dun realii feel like blogging liao.ya
lynn bimbo and huiwen bimbo must cheer up horxzx. =)
dun be unhappy over that thing le..yup.
and its fun going out with euu guys..hehex..
all so bimbo and so funny.hahax.. =)
germaine oso must cheer up okiies..=)
ii miss playing with euu lahx.. ya ya.
haiyo anyway everyone cheer up lahx..
dun wanna see euu ppl sad..yup =)

10:17 AM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you
I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember yooooou,and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for yooooou,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind '
cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you, no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

6:45 PM

Monday, April 24, 2006

todae was so nort nort moii day lahx..fuck
gort so many trouble..so damm stress
she just msg miie some msg**haiix..
so make miie wanna breakdown now..
just feel like crying and cutting now..haiix
but too bad..moii penknife ishx missing now
missing in action ya..someone help miie find!
i'm in the process of letting go now..but why
why must euu send miiee the msg??why
ii wanna turn back and be with euu agaiin..
but am ii verii silly..ii dun wanna get hurt anymore
cause everything ishx too much furr miie tuhh bear
i'm realii tired of crying furr euu..haiix.
i'm just so tired right now..can ii just breakdown
maybe ii should just dun care and let go..
cause ii wanna see happiness and nort tears anymore.
ii have ask euu tuhh give up on miie..
but euu told miie euu still lurbb miie..haiix
can ii believe those word euu sae?can ii stil trust euu?
euu ask miie tuhh be your pricess forever..
euu say euu wanted tuhh be moii guardian angel
and always be by moii side protecting miie..
can ii still trust those word euu sae??haiix.
i'm realii confuse right now..haiix..
as furr liling..well i'm so sorriie furr todae
perhaps ii was too sensitive le..duii bu qii.
everything euu say was rightt..i'm a fucking bitch
i'm northing but a bitch..i'm just so tired
ii dunnoe whats wrong with miie these few days
ii become so sensitive over things..haiix..
euu sae ii wan bu qii..thanks furr saying that..
ii noe ii verii wan bu qii..haiix..ii dunnoe lahx.
feel so stress right now..sorriie tuhh everyone
ii guess everything was moii fault..i'm sorry

9:45 PM

Sunday, April 23, 2006

toda the weather so damm nice lahx..hahax
it rain in the afternoon den went back sunny again
okiies.meet weisuan at bugis at around 12 plus
den after walk around tuhh search furr bag..
but none caught moii attention..so sad lahx..
so after slack around there..it was so siianz ii swear
den after sms the bimbo germain tuhh meet miie
and after ii make moii way down tuhh tiong..
went arcade there tuhh slack..was so siianz..
nort long later..those 3 bimbos came...hahax..
and LYNN WAS SO SEXY II TELL EUU..HAHAX
SHE WAS WEARING A MINI SKIRT AND SHORT TUBE
ii swear she look so sexy in it alright..hahax..=)
anyway those 3 bimbos are damm funny ii swear
going out with them ishx fun..but verii malu can
cause they over bimbo le..haiyo..sad case man.hahax
den after sending them all tuhh bus stop le,
ii walk tuhh great world there..wanting tuhh go home
but whuu noes suddenly moii didi shouted moii name
she was actually in the bus going home liao..
but when she saw miie,she alight and chase after miie
hahax.den after we took shutle bus tuhh town
walk around far east there and finally bought moii bag
hahax..it wasnt that nice lahx..but no choice lor
cause thats the nicest bag ii saw todae..haiix.so sad
anyway todae friendster went abit crazy furr miie
went in saw gort new msg,new testii and frnz request..
after doing everything finish,another frenz request
haiyo like so busy like that can..hahax...
moii leg ishx damm fucking pain ii swear
ii walk nearly like the whole day..omg lahx..hmm...
shall blog more tml lahx..take care ppl<3<3

9:45 PM

todae have bbq..quite fun lahx.but it rain.siianx
den after went tiong tuhh meet the bimbos.hahax
they were damm bimbo ii swear..cannot tahan them
hahax..den after dunnoe what happen lahx...
everyone like having black face..omg can..hmm..
saw jiali and her cliques at tiong..so cool lahx..
hmm...after they went hhome liao..hahax..
wanted tuhh go back east coast there derhh.,
but in the end decide tuhh go home lahx.so siianz
den halfway home someone msg miie..hahax
was damm happy but sad too..haiix..
nvm shall nort say le lahx..if not later ii cry agaiin
hmm..just now ii was flooding tricia and wendy..
tricia say if ii can flood her 1000 she call miie ahma
and guess what..ii flood her 1137 testii.hahax..
bbut ii noe she was joking..i'm still her mummy ya.
anyway ii lurbb moii nuer so much lahx..<3<3
now so siianz..tml going bugis tuhh shop.hahax
hope ii can purchase somehting home lahx...
if nort will be verii siianz derhh..hahax..hmm....
ming ask miie tuhh blog about the world..so lame
hmm.todae the weather so nice and cooling..
euu ppl wan noe a secret anot??hmm.....
the earth ishx round euu noe??hahax...
ii noe its lame lahx..but whatever..ii dun care.hmm.
den the world having alot of fighting lahx..
so unhealthy lifestyle..must be like miie lahx..
peace maker..everywhere ii go will have peace derhh
hahax..ii noe verii bhb lahx..but this ishx miie
think thats all le bahx..looking forward furr tml<3

1:00 AM

Friday, April 21, 2006

todae in school was so siianz lahx.haiix
chinese class was suppose tuhh be fun
but it sux in the end lahx..so idiot lahx.
cher say whuu never bring books must stand
but ii hack care lahx..so ii was sitting down
but whuu noes liling so damm ass lahx.sarbo miie
den in the end ii have tuhh stand.wth lor.hahax
anyway todae have some bazar thing lahx..
it was so siianz ii swear..did help out abit lahx..
ii did nort spend alot of money lahx..hahax
cause ii gort food furr free and stuff furr free too.
hahax..tricia nuer bought miie mother day present
hahax..she so nice riitex??hahax..lurbb euu ya<3
liling bought miie stuff too..thanks alright..
dun be sad le..must cheer up alright... =)
oh and ii gort wet thanks tuhh germaine ya..hahax
but it was fun playing with them lahx..ya.hmm.....
they are like a bunch of bimbos.hahax..
okiies..after everything went tiong with tricia and xuewen
ii so lurbb them lahx..they were so funny.hahax
ii lurbb moii nuer and moii horny bitch<3..hahax
okies.i'm tired liao..ii niid a rest right now..
shall blog more tml lahx..take care ppl...<3<3

11:12 PM

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Todae was damm fun in school lahx..hahax
recess time went hall tuhh play badminton..
guess everyone was laughing at miiie lahx
cause the way ii play ishx verii funny.. ya ya
after school stay back furr syf..damm sucks
mr francis keep looking at our side here..
den down there keep scolding and stuff.
ishx like we never even do anything lahx..so ass
this school realii suxks lahx..hate the school
todae saw lynn and germaine dance..hahax
they realii shake lahx..wa so sexy siia..
somemore dun wan admit they are sexy.hmm..
after syf went tiong with xuewen,tricia and liling
slack at long john there.waited furr daddy tuhh come
and finally she came..so asshole lahx..make miie wait
but lucky xuewen was there tuhh accompany miie
thanks horny bitch...ii lurbb euu worxzx..hahax..<3
anyway todae was quite a happy day lahx.. ya ya
now trying tuhh type happy things in moii blog..
if nort later tia sae read moii blog verii depressing.hahax
think thats all le bahx..take care everyone..<3<3

10:34 PM

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

todae ii saw euu*..it was so sad alright..haiix
went home and think alot of stuff agaiin.
and ii decided tuhh let euu go..i'm sorriie..
maybe ii hurt euu or maybe ii dun.ii dunnoe too
ii just dun wanna hold on anymore..it reali hurts
moii heart just hurts so much..ii wanna breakdown
ii wanna cry out loud.ii hope i'm dead right now
ii hope ii could never ever see euu agaiin..
cause ii hate tuhh see euu in other ppl arms..haiix
ii realii wish euu were mine and forever mine..
how ii wish euu would hold miie tightly in your arms
but ii guess everything was just a dream ii have
euu will never ever see the pain i'm going through
and will never feel the pain too..haiix..
since the dae euu left,ii was already dead..
that night euu realii broke moii heart so much
euu were so evil tuhh make moii heart bleed.haiix
now moii heart ishx shattered into pieces..
ii guess it can never be back tuhh perfect anymore
cause the scars euu left furr miie ishx far too deep
ii just find it so hurting tuhh hhold on..haiix
so ii guess ii should realii learn the word let go..
cause ii realii cant take it anymore..haiix
ii will breakdown anytime right now..
ii noe ii will feel verii hurt if ii let go..
but if ii dun let go,ii might suffer more hurt and pain
ii realii dun wan that..cause ii have enough
the scars euu given miie ishx far tuhh much
its enough tuhh last miie furr life..haiix..

behind those smiles were nothing but tears
everything ishx just too much furr mii tuhh bear
those broken smiles of mine will stay forever
ii can never smile happily anymore..haiix
thanks furr all those memories euu given miie
it will be forever kept in moii heart..
this ishx the promise ii make tuhh euu =(

7:32 PM

Monday, April 17, 2006

todae isn't a good dae ii swear..haiix
ii realii feel so lost riitex now..
feeling so stress because of ___ and ___
ii dun understand why ii cant solve it??
ii dunnoe whuu tuhh chose in the end
cause both parties will feel hurt derhh..
maybe ii should nort bother abt it bahx
wait till the daes come den sae lor.haiix
guess can only think this way bahx..ya
den about moii daddy derhh thing..haiix
ii dunnoe why will make until like that.haiyo
daddy ar daddy..why so many trouble siia
hmm..anyay ii will support euu all the way derhh
so dun niid worry okiiess..lurbb euu lahx.
and tricia nuer..cheer up alright... =) <3
euu noe mummiie will lurbb euu derhh..haha
and euu oso noe ii will be there furr euu riitex..ya
hmm...and liling euu must cheer up alright..
dun always cry cry cry lahx..muz be strong..
must be like miie lahx..will nort cry derhh.hehex
anyway just take care alright..hehex... <3
shall end here ii think..take care ppl..
baby xing thanks furr everything okiies..
thanks furr being there furr miie..appreciate it

Don't speak, seal your lips,
please don't say a word
maybe I won't remember the words I have not heard
I see that you're in love,
I know it's not with me
but I don't want the truth to haunt my memory

It's never too late to relight the fire
it never stopped burning for me
the flame, it never died inside of me

How is it now that I can tell you I love you
How is it only now that it's too late
What can I do, the love that we had is torn in two
so you'll take the smiles from all of our years
I'll take the tears

I sit and reminisce, of times that we once shared
you gave me more then love
but never thought i care
my feelings were all for you
although it did not show
I only told you on the day you let me go

It's never too late to relight the fire
it never stopped burning for me
The flame, it never died inside of meeee,baby

How is it now that I can tell you, I love you
How is it only now that it's too late
what can I do, the love that we had is torn in two
so you'll take the smiles from all of our years
and I'll take the tears

Now I realise that your no longer mine
but I'm hoping the pain will heal in time
although your leaving, I won't say goodbye
because I know your here with me inside,now ia be alive

How is it now that I can tell you i love you
how is it only now that it's too late(to late,to late baby)
What can I do the love that we had is torn in two
so you'll take the smiles from all of our years
and I 'll take the tears

10:55 PM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

haiix..feeling so siianz riitex now..hmm...
slack at home todae..neber go out at all
think ii will just bored tuhh death lahx..
anyway liling stop reading moii blog okiies
always sae read moii blog den will cry!!
ii shall ban euu from reading moii blog.hahax
this few days still okiies furr miie lahx..
still feeling sad and confuse lahx..haiix
those 2 ppl realii drive miie crazy siia..hmmm..
ii realii dunnoe chose whuu lahx..haiix
ii just hope nothing will happen lahx..
there ishx just so many thing happen in moii life
its realii verii tiring furr miie lahx..haiix
hope someone can be by moii side..
but ii guess no one will be there furr miie de.haiix
baby can ii ask euu a question??ii just feel like asking
and that ishx whether euu gort lurbb miie before
it seem like euu only treasure miie when ii leave
when ii am by your side,euu dun treausure miie.haiix
ii feel like hating euu but ii just cant bear tuhh hate
cause ii noe moii heart still lurbb euu alot.haiix
when will ii ever learn the word let go..haiix
maybe ii'm stubborn, maybe ii'm naive.
ii always think euu were the only one furr miie
but ii was just so wrong..we were nort meant tuhh be
we always quarrel because of small things..
and we are always breaking up..haiix..its enough
this life realii sucks so much..ii hate moii life
when can ii realii be back the happy miie again
ii just miss moii smile so much..haiix..
maybe we are just nort fated tuhh be together bahx.
maybe letting euu go would be best for us.
ii dunnoe would ii be happy with the decision ii make
but ii noe ii just wan euu tuhh be happy.haiix

3:03 PM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

just reach home nort long..so tiredd siiaa.
anyway went marrina south tuhh eat..
so long never go there eat le lahx..
and finally can go le..so happy alright.
miie and moii cousin eat alot lahx..hahax
and we keep taking all the chicken.hahax
of course there was some screaming too..
cause we were scare of the oil lahx..
but we did enjoy ourself there.hahax
anyway todae was quite a fun daae lahx..
baby xing..when can ii talk tuhh euu ar??
ii gort alot of things tuhh tell euu okiies..
faaster come talk tuhh miie okiies..hahax =)
anyway tuhh ___. pls dun be silly anymor le
its realii nort worth tuhh cut your hand furr miie
and more nort worth tuhh cut moii name..
so ii hope euu can stop cutting le..ya.haiix
anyway everyone around miie pls dun cut le
its realii nort nice tuhh cut lor..haiix
especially leaving all the scars on the hand..
ii now abit regret lahx..cause its so ugly lor
the scars on moii hand realii sucks alright.haiix

[baby ii guess its time tuhh bid goodbye]
[ii dun niid euu in moii life anymore]]

12:39 AM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

this few days haven been so stress furr miie.
getting into so many shit thing lahx.haiix
plus gort in between ____ and _____
ii realii dunnoe what tuhh do..so stress
dunnoe whuu tuhh chose oso..ii hate moiiself
ii just hate everything that happen right now.
ii feel like dying right now..i'm serious ya
this year like a sad year furr miie okiies..
everything oso make miie so sad..haiix
ii wonder when can ii smile again..
everytime ii laugh and play but everything ishx fake
in fact inside,i'm realii hurt..haiix
when can moii heartx realii recover.haiix
when can aall this hurt stop finding miie??
ii realii dunnoe what ii wan now..haiix

9:23 PM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

ytd was toking tuhh tricia over the phone..
haiix..it was like a sad dae furr both of us.
tricia was crying ovr the phone.poor her
cheer up alright??mummiie lurbb euu ya.
and we were listening tuhh all the sad song.
ii keep on hearing jie kou lahx..haiix
this song realii brings back alot of memoriies.
haiix..after putting down the phone with tricia,
ii cry lahx..cause ii cannot take it anymore.
whenever ii hear this song,ii will think alot of things
memoriies will just keep flashing back..haiix
ii try verii hard tuhh stop thinking of euu.
but ii just cannot..haiix.ii just feel so hurt.
ii realii wann tuhh breakdown right now..haiix
anyway just change moii blog song.haiix
this song make miie cry tuhh..haiix..
wo haii ji de wo men de yue ding..haiix
until now ii still remember what euu promise miie
euu sae euu will always be by moii side..
and euu will never ever leave miie..haiix
was everything a lie that euu sae tuhh miie.
ppl ishx saying promise are meant tuhh be broken
but ii did nort believe in that..
because ii know that euu will nort break promise
but ii guess ii was verii wrong..haiix..
but euu have proven everything tuhh miie..
euu proven that promise are meant tuhh be broken.
wo de xing zhen de hao tong hao tong.
ii realii wanna breakdown right now..haiix
thanks tuhh those ppl whuu concern abt miie.

4:15 PM

Saturday, April 08, 2006

this few days nort verii happy abt things lahx
just feel so stress right now..ii wan tuhh breakdown
and the stupid asshole school give miie trouble
the teachers are all against miie lahx..wth.
seriously ii hate school right now..haiix
den plus on the other hand she*hurt miie..haiix
when can all this pain stop finding miie..
ii realii cannot take it anymore le.so stressful
must ii realii give up on her?must ii let go.
ii know she dun lurbb miie anymore le..
so ii think ii should try tuhh give up bahx.haiix
though it hurts but ii guess ii gort no choice
haiix..ii just dun feel nice right now.haiix
shall blog more tonight or tml bahx.haiix
as ii going tuhh get ready tuhh go out le.

12:13 PM

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

todae school damm sux lahx..so damm ass.
gort scolding from miss phee agaiin.haiix
she sae all moii frenz are drop out lahx..
den say what ii wan continue studying
ishx because ii scare tuhh get kick out of school
and be a drop out like moii those frenz.
ishx like wth lahx..haiya whatever okiies
nvm lahx..slowly will get use tuhh it de!
the teachers are like all against miie lahx.
just because of 1 bitch!haiix..well nvm lahx
maybe everything ishx ii deserve it de lor..
whuu ask miie ishx a bitch..so no choice lahx.
but ii can say ii will have hard time in school
ii told moii father what happen todae..haiix
den he like aabit dun care de..so nvm lahx.
ii noe he kind of give up on miie liao..
as ii'm gone case now..or maybe useless bahx.
anyway ii just hate school so much right now
the only thing ii lurbb ishx moii frenz..thats all.
if moii frenz ishx nort in this school,
ii swear ii will quit school right now siia..haiix
ii just dun like th school and ii hate studying.
anyway everything just go so wrong right now.
ii niidd her tuhh be with miie right now..haiix
but why ishx it always someone else and nort her
ii truly miss her so much.ii hope she knows lahx.
ii guess she already move on le bahx...haiix
and ii'm still waiting furr her tuhh come back.
am ii verii silly tuhh wait furr her??haiix
should ii move on too or should ii stay?i'm confuse
all ii noe ishx that ii realii do lurbb her alot
ii realii cant bear tuhh let go everything.haiix
maybe ii shall leave everything tuhh fate bahx.haiix

[baby euu noee how much ii lurbb euu]
[euu should noee ii will never let euu go]
[so pls come back,ii niid euu with miie]

11:56 PM

Monday, April 03, 2006

just came back not long lahx..haiix..so sad
went tiong tuhh eat le den go home..haiix
todae parents went tuhh school.damm ass
they actually help the bitch lahx.haiix*
they say everything ishx ii started first de.
whatever lahx..ya ya everything moii fault
nort that bitch fault.can only blame myself!!
that ting ting thing oso moii fault ya..
everything that goes wrong ishx all moii fault
ii now only hope they charge miie too lahx
cause ii feel bad that clarice kanna charge.haiix
daddy i'm realii so sorriiee tuhh euu lahx.haiix
since miss phee and everyone sae ishx moii fault
so why nort put the charge only on miie.
seriously ii dun mind getting into girls home.
as long as ii can save moii daddy ii dun mind
so ii hope they will charge miie siia..whatever.
anyway ii just realisee something lahx.haiix
feeling so sad and disappointed in her*...
dunnoe is it reali she betray miie..haiix
ii realii do hope ii know the answer ya.hmm..
anyway this fucking school sux alright.haiix
ii wan quit school lahx.but too bad lor
ii cannot pangseh tricia as ii promise her
that we will 2 work hard together derhhx.
so no matter what oso muz stay!so ya..
anyway ii hate moii parents,teacher and school
ii hate myself too..ii hate her* too lahx
because of this matter,ii so stress can..
now ii learnt a new lesson le.haiix
and that ishx never trust someone..haiix
ii now seriously dun trust anyone anymore le.ya
anyway furget it lahx..its over liao..

sometimes ii reali feel like breakingdown
ii wanna cry my whole heart out.haiix
ii niid her* here with miie right now
but does she know ii nidd her now??haiix
everything ishx just too much furr miie tuhh bear
ii hope someone would be there furr miie..
but whuu would be there??haiix..

[ii just wanna sae ii miss euu baby]
[would euu pls come back tuhh miie?]

10:11 PM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

feeling so sleepy right now lahx..but no choice
bcause ii gort tuhh pray moii ah ma.so ya
haiix..ytd was realii a bad daee ii swear!!
i'm truly sorriie tuhh her*i'm realii sorriiee
ii didn't mean tuhh make euu tears at all.
but maybe letting miie go would be best furr euu.
ii dunnoe why euu lurbb miie so much
when i'm just nothing but a bitch!haiix.
ii feel guilty right now..haiix..i'm sorriiee
ii noe ii hurt euu and ii dun feel nice abt it.
ii realii wanna breakdown right now.haiix
cause everything ish too much furr miie tuhh bear
moii heart really cannot take it anymore..
i'm nort putting the blame on you or anything.
so dun feel bad or cut your hand anymore.haiix
cause if you cut your hand,euu only make miie worse
so pls ii beg euu.pls dun cut anymore!!haiix
so many thing just happen lahx..so stress now..
and no one can even help miie at all!haiix
ii realii dunnoe what ii wan right now..
haiix..nvm lahx..ii hope euu furget miie.
cause i'm nort worth it..i'm a bitch!ya..haiix
todae recieve another hurt by you!i'm hurt
ii feel like crying but tears just dun come down
maybe ii realii dun understand euu at all.
euu ask miie dun be like this.but what can ii do
haiix..ii realii dunnoe whats wrong right now..
ii realii wanna breakdown right now.haiix
memories of us keep flashing back.haiix
and baby euu muz know something.ii miss euu
ii reali do miiss euu.ii wan euu back.
ii wan euu back in moii life.ii niid euu baby.
anyway tml niid go back school.fuck ii hate it
seriously ii hate school alright..haiix..
i niid more rest..ii reali do.i'm just so tired
tired of everything that ish happening right now.
ii wan tuhh transfer school oso.ii reali feel like
but ii doubt can transfer out le...haiix.nvm
just have tuhh bear a few more years lahx.haiix

12:22 AM