Friday, March 24, 2006

ytd went out tricia lahx..hehex.so fun worx
we went town and took neoprint lahx.hahax
the neoprint turn out okiies lahx.hmm.
den after went cine there walk around lor.
wanted tuhh eat but alot of people..ya
den in the end went tuhh tiong there.
tricia told miie she gort feeling that
we will see until someone here..hahax..
and reali we saw.and its alot okiies
saw stephanie at first..den went mac there
saw moii daddy,shuyi and meekee lor.hahax
den after xinyi came lor..idiot de okiies
the comment she come she keep looking at miie
den after she came and call miie chao ahlian.
and ii call her back chaoahbeng lahx..
den after they leaving liao.so miie and tricia left
den before leaving xinyi went tuhh make miie
and ii chase after her lor..like retarded ppl.
but did norrt get tuhh make her lahx..so sad
cause daddy keep blocking miie..so ass.
den after saw alex,shirley,edsel and manting.
den alex keep making miie lahx..whatever
shirley was seh lahx..can see lor..idiot
okiies anyway after went tuhh eat long john.
den after walk tricia back den went home
tok alot tuhh her ytd lahx..den liling call miie
she sound so sad lahx..haiix..ii dunnoe oso
she cut her hand again lahx..fucker siia
anyway ii feel so sorry tuhh them lahx..haiix
nvm..shall blog more tonight.cause going out

2:03 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

todae was like a fuck up day furr miie okiies.
after school went tuhh meet liling first
den after saw xuewen den after she follow us
den we went tiong together..steph follow us too
liling and her cliques follow us too.hahax.
in the bus was damm malu okiies..
we totally make hell lot of noise lahx.hahax
den reach tiong there..saw nick and mae at mac
den went tuhh say hi le..so damm funny
den suddenly liling and her cliques came
and we started playign outside mac..so malu can
i scream like hell lots of time..hahax..
liling was so bad..squeeze moii breast lahx..
den touch my chee bye too..fuck okiies..
den dunnoe whuu make xuewen oso..hahax
okiies whatever..ii noe we 2 so malu can!
and alot of people were looking at us..
tricia nuer gort pissed with us lahx..haiix.
okiies den after we slack at mac there.
saw jack jack there..she so dao okiies.
she never even say hi tuhh miie lor..haiix
ii know ii deserve it because ii so mean tuhh her
cause when she told miie she like miie
ii reject her on the spot..well i'm sorry!
liling cut her hand okiies..ii feel so sorry lahx
everything was because of miie.i'm sorry
ii reali hope euu can give up on miie soon.
cause i'm nort worth it..i'm a bitch lahx.
i'm really so sorry lahx..maybe its moii faullt
euu should nort even fall for miie in the first place
cause i'm nort as good as what euu thinkk.
i am sorry i cause euu tuhh be miserable everday
last time euu always laugh and smile de..but now
euu always having a sad face.haiix..ii realii dunnoe
euu say euu know moii answer le..
thats why euu go and cut de..haiix..i'm sorry lahx.
ii sumtimes reali feel like breaking down..
why suddenly so many things happen..haiix.
ii dun feel nice abit it lahx..i feel so bad okiies
i feel bad furr hurting euu.i realii do..
as furr jovy that side..she say she will wait furr miie
i told her that if she wanna move on den go ahead
but she say she ish like waiting furr miie.haiix
its making miie so confuse lahx.i dunnoe chose whuu
maybe ii should choose myself de..ya
maybe staying single can be quite good too.
at least ii dun feel hurt and ii dun hurt others too..ya
ii just feel so guilty right now..haiix.
ii feel ilke cutting moii hand right now lahx..
but if ii know ii cut sure gort alot of things de.haiix
wo zhen de zhen de heng xiang ni..haiix
i'm reali like so confuse right now..i miss her*
but ii know we can never be together anymore
cause moii heart feel so numb right now..haiix
moii heart just feel so hurt right now
do euu even know abt this??ii hope euu know
everyone know i'm hurt by euu lahx.
but do euu know??do euu undertsand the pain
do euu know abt the tears that ii cried furr euu?haiix

11:50 PM

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

todae in school guess nothing happen bahx
but during recess it was damm fun lahx.
maryanne was playing bball okiies.hahax
ii was damm shock tuhh see her play can
well den after liling went over tuhh join her.
den after weisuan,steph,miie and bernice went
so we play bball with them lor..hahax
ii was like the most lousy wan lahx..so idiot.
okiies den after tricia nuer nd her cliques came
so we all play together..was like damm fun lahx
we laugh like damm loud lahx..hahax.malu siia
den some roll on the floor and laugh..wtf okiies
hmm..well den after nothing special thing happen
hmm.ii know during recess we all laugh like mad
until alot of people wwas looking at us..haiix.
hmm..after school went tuhh meet nick.
steph went home lor.haiix.so sad lahx..hmm..
den miie and tricia and dunnoe whuu went tiong
we were like talking abt liling lahx.and guess what
she suddenly appear infront of us okiies..
miie and tricia scream and we kind of run away
omg..ii shouted so loud okiies..so malu lahx
everyone was like looking at us??hahax..damm shit
den after went long john there tuhh eat..ya!
den tricia went tuhh tell nic abt the tofu thing
den they all laugh at miie lor..naughty nuer.hahax
hmm.anyway tricia and miie verii tired le.haiix.
tired of everything and all thhe rumours..haiix
why they cant just give us alone ar??haiix.
haiix..ii reali gort nothing tuhh say le.haiix
why everything ish just so wrong right now?
ii reali feel like breaking down..i'm tried!
jovy sms miie asking if i still love her??
i reali gort no comment on this le..haiix

11:04 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

todae went tiong meet tricia first.hmm.
den after saw nick and i gort a shock lahx
den dunnoe she suddenly disappear okiies.
and she was behind miie lahx..fuck okiies.
ii scream like damm loud lahx..whatever.hehex
den after weisuan came tuhh meet us..
we eat at rajahinn there.ya..hahax..
den after eating,we went down tuhh shop
den saw liling after that! her face abit weird.
cause she just woke up from her slp..
den after went arcade there tuhh slack.
saw jack jack there lahx..she so diao lahx
but she did sae hi tuhh miie lahx..so ya
weisuan put this in her friendster okiies.
ii admit ii was high lahx..but whatever
ii did nort know she will take tis pic..
and yes.i was lying on ace lap!hahax.
lucky she nv take i was hugging ace lahx.
ii think ii look damm weird okiies..

put this pic here again..hahax..hmm..
look aat the difference between the 2 pic
i feel so malu cann..hmm...whatever

tink thats all le bahx..haiix..
i still angry with baby over that thing
i feel like forgiving her lahx..but
ii oso dun feel like.haiix.confuse siia
ii reali dunnoe what i wan right now.ya
haiix..forget it lahx..ii give up

12:44 AM

Friday, March 17, 2006

ytd was damm shit furr miie okiies..
zouk was like damm crowded lahx
damm hell lot of people okiies..
first went to meet tricia and liling.
den after went great world meet xuewen
den after nick and the rest came lahx
we went zouk there together lahx.ya
hmm..xuewen and liling did not get in
so they went back home lahx..haiix
den the rest of us went in tuhh zouk
everyone was like dancing and stuff
but got alot of people never enjoy too.hehe
some like went in a while den go out le
but there is reali alot alot of people
omg i saw xiao ben can..hahax.nvm ya
we went till zouk close lahx..hahax.den went out
saw daddy was outside with her frenz
they planning tuhh whack someone lahx
but in the end that person so humji can
he saw so many ppl outside den he went back in
in the end they give up waiting lahx..so ya
after went we walk tuhh great world there
ace and nicklaus was like damm funny okiies
cause ace offered tuhh let miie hook her hand
den stupid nick go say what i'm hers
den after pull miie away from ace..hahax
den when we were walking back,
weisuan suddenly remind miie of sumthing
and i ran across the road when there is car.
den nicklaus pull miie back and say i was high
hahax..den all taxi driver look at miie can.fuck
okiies den we reach great world liao.so siannx
bought alcohol tuhh drink lahx...hahax.yup
ii drink 8.4% alcohol.den i went high
i wasn't drunk ii was just high lahx..hahax
weisuan went high too.but she more worse okiies
she throw glass bottle and acted like some siao ppl.hahax
den after ace,miie,weisuan and jaret went toilet
ii only remember we sleep at great world there
and ace was damm good.she let miie lie on her lap.
ii think i hug her or something.as in hug tuhh slpp.
hmm..got ppl do push up in the middle of the road can
hahax..whatever lahx..ii vomited too..hahax.
was feeling so uncomfortable lahx.i vomit 2 timees
and everyone was like asking if i am okiies..hahax
slack at great world till 8 plus in the morning..
den cab home with weisuan,ace and jaret..hahax
ace and nick was damm good okiies.hahax
they lend miie their blouse and blazer lahx..
inside zouk ace lend miie hers blouse..hahac
den after we went out of zouk le nick lend miie hers
thanks ya.ii think they are damm nice lahx.
okiies ii think thaats all bahx.ii cannot remember liao
ii was molested at zouk ytd lahx..ya.
someone pull my tube down and someone touch my ass
and someone use his lanjiao tuhh dunnoe what miie
maybe its my fault bahx.cause my skirt was damm short
everyone try tuhh protect miie but fail lahx
in this kind of place sure let ppl touch ass de..haiix
think baby oso dun care whether i get molested anot
hmm..weisuan put tis pic in her friendster lahx.
this was how ii look when i stay out whole nitex.
look at the glass there.its early in the morning.hahax
look so ugly lor..hahax.but i was more ugly when i'm high

still having cold war with baby.i nv sms her
i do miss her but haiix..i dunnoe lahx.ya

11:44 PM

Thursday, March 16, 2006

ytd damm sux lahx..i hate it alright.fuck
ytd went town to shop with weisuan..
town ish like nothing tuhh shop de can
maybe should say we shop till siianx liao
den after 1 fucking thing happen okiies.
ii was leaning against the pillar tuhh sms
den gort this fucking guy damm shit
stand infront of miie and take my pic lahx
as in he use his handphone take miie okiies
ii find it abit weird le so i told weisuan
weisuan was like he is taking euu lahx.
den weisuan scolded him chee bye and pervert
after taking he go show his frenz lahx..
den the frenz turn and look lahx..fuck can
ii diao them and scold lahx..idiot lahx.
wanted tuhh confront them but no evidence
so in the end ii just walk away lahx.fuck siia
ii mean what so nice tuhh take siia.fuck lahx
he is stupid perverted okiies..haiix..nvm
den after go meet janet.den went lot 1
after took a train tuhh tiong
in the train damm shit oso lahx..
gort this guy keep looking at us..
den when we alight he oso alight can.fuck
so ii call ppl tuhh come down help
but in the end the guy dunnoe fly till where le
but in the train ii keep scolding him lahx
i scolded him like damm loud lahx.hahax
ii diao him too..so xialan okiies
den after went tiong tuhh eat.
saw my didi and kelvin together..hahax
den after we went kfc tuhh eat lor.ya
after that we went tuhh take a cab tuhh moii hse
den after send them downstaris take cab
hahax..janet oso another pervert 1 de okiies.
keep touching miie lahx..fucker can
den weisuan down there keep touching miie
den keep pulling down my skirt.fuck lahx
den she beat until got her finger print at my back
okiies den whatver lahx.ya.hmmm......
baby and miie having cold war now..
because of something lahx..ya.hmm...
tink if ii tell baby gort ppl take pic of miie
and molested miie she oso dun care de
cause in her heart she only care about ____
so nvm..forget it!haiix..i'm disappointed in her

12:15 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

I JUST HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW!
I HATE HER AND HER AND EUU
I HATE MYSELF TOO!I HATE EVERYTHING
EVERYTHING IS JUST SO WRONG NOW.
II DUNNOE WHAT II HAVE DONE WRONG
UNTIL EUU TREAT MIIE LIKE THIS!
WHATEVER..II GIVE UP TOO..HAIIX
LOOKS LIKE THE CUTTING IS NV GOODBYE
EVERYTHING ISH COMING BACK AGAIN
I'M BACK TUHH THE SAD MIIE AGAIN
II JUST HATE MOII FUCKING LIFE.
II HATE EVERYTHING..II TINK II SHALL GO DIE

1:00 AM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Todae was like fun fun fun lahx.hehe
meet weisuan first.den went gwc
meet with tricia and her frenx lahx.
den after meet daddy lor..hahax
den wait fur huiting tuhh finish work
den went town together..hehex
shop around at cine.hmm.
after nicklaus and janet came tuhh meet us
den we all went talk outside cine there
they so idiot lahx..cannot stand them siia
they play with my heels lahx..fuck can
and ii have tuhh kiss them lahx..
so ii can have the heels back..wtf can
hmm.euu ppl go guess if ii did kiss bahx?
ish like so whatever lahx..siianx siia
hmm.tink thats all le laxh...yup
dun feel like blogging much too.hehex
cause got alot of stuff is private de
hehex..well sorry guys..too bad lahx
ii just dun wish tuhh continue le.ya
but ii just noe ii have fun todae lahx

baby are euu cheating on miie agaiin??
ii reali hope euu would nort play miie again
cause tiis time ii will realii breakdown
ii dunnoe why suddenly euu treat miie so good
ii reali hope euu dun cheat miie agaiin.haiix
anyway ii do miss euu baby..

11:39 PM

Monday, March 13, 2006

Todae was like so siianx lahx..
actually nort realii siianx lahx
ish shop until my leg paiin okiies.
ii have been walking the whole day
moii leg ish fucking paiin lahx.
hmm.todae bought a top.
ii love it so much okiies.hahax
den went tuhh alot of place lahx
shall nort mention the place tuhh.
shall lim ting ting todae..
haiix.what a sway day lahx.fuck
den she go msg my didi..fuck lahx
sae what her ah ma die.den in bad mood
call miie dun irritate her.wtf can
she abit too thick skinned lor..
whuu irritate her siia.crazy lahx
she like telling the whole world
that her ah ma die lahx..crazy okiies
she sms tuhh jovy too..whatever lahx
hmm...ii feel sad that her ah ma die lahx
ii nort so evil after all de lor.hmm.
todae baby treat miie so good lahx..
first time she ask miie tuhh go home early
den like so caring towards miie.hehex
feel so happy leii!hahax..hmm..
oh ppl euu guess what ii say tuhh liling
ii say ii miss her breast okiies..hahax
who ask her prank miie first.hahax
anyway tiis ish just a old pic lahx..
hmm..ii now nv cut le..so dun worry
unless baby hurt miie again lor.

the reason why i put the pic here
its because ii no longer wan cut le
so goodbye to all the cutting..haiix
now my hand ish full of scars
den when euu touch my hand,
euu can feel the scars pop up de.
so its goodbye tuhh the cutting

12:20 AM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

hmm.just came home nort long.haiix
went tiong to meet weisuan first
den after saw alot of people lahx..
clarice,edsel,shirley,weilun and manting
den after clarice follow us..ya
went great world for a while.haiix
ii feel like slapping ting ting okay..
ii just dunnoe why so many ppl like her
she only know how to act cute
and know how to flirt around lahx.
what a bitch she is lahx..fuck!
clarice told miie her frenz like her lahx
is like wtf can..whatever lahx..hmm
den now the guy become her godbrother
so next time she got problem she will cal him
i'm not jealous because she got ppl like lahx
i just find that they dunnoe her yet..
wait till euu know her longer,
den euu will see the real her le lor..nvm nvm
is their choice lahx..i cannot care much
den after went town to meet nicklaus and frenz
after clarice go le..leaving us alone lahx
so miie and weisuan wanted go tampanies
den who knows when we were on the way,
i felt urgent.so alight bus and go toilet.
den after weisuan say wan go ps there
so we took a train all the way back to ps
den meet nicklaus there lahx..hahax!!
okay ii think ii dun wan say anymore le
i just hate LIM TING TING!!!!
SHE TOTALLY SUX LIKE HELL!!

12:23 AM

Friday, March 10, 2006

just came back nort long.hmm
todae suppose to meet weisuan
den baby suddenly msg miie lahx
ask miie wan meet her mahx.
of course i agree lahx..hahax..
suppose to meet weisua too
den after daddy call miie lahx
ask miie go town with her..
so damm messy can..haix
suddenly so many ask miie out
anyway after i went great world
meet baby and weisuan together
hmm.den daddy call again lahx
ask miie meet mie at great world
she came with ____..hmm.yup
after i kind of quarrel with my didi
over LIM TING TING things okay
i gort so angry lahx..whatever siia
den after i ignore her okay
i just walk away..den she explain
but i didn't care abt her lahx
wanted to disown her..but nv lahx
i got so angry i went to hit the board.
den weisuan got scare lahx...hahax
she was asking miie to relax lahx.
den after everything was okay le..
LIM TING TING SUCKS OKAY
she bluff teacher she got dengue fever
thats why cannot go for EFL
but its alll bullshit lahx..liar sia
she can still work and laugh.hahax
she is sick??hahax.who believes siia
she go die better lahx..idiot siia
i know i am evil lahx.but whatever
she dunnoe 2 time how many ppl lahx
she say she still cannot forget jovy..
den after she still stead with my didi
den few days before she stead with liqi
she told jovy she cannot forget her/
is like wtf can.she is such a flirt siia
i tink liqi is damm stupid okay..
okay whatever.dun wanna tok abt her le
after the quarrel,i left with weisuan
i feel bad okay..cause i pang seh daddy
hehex..well after went jurong there
waited for 1 hour 30 mins for weisuan
after went back to tiong there lahx
meet jackfruit there first..hahax
den after went to great world..ya
after meet my didi and my daddy
den go play pool..ya!!haix..
when going home,saw andew
now feeling so siianx..hmm...
liling is coming back soon.hehex
can prank her liao..hahax..cool
i miss my tricia nuer..hehex
[baby i love you so much]
[so dun ever leave miie]

12:23 AM

Thursday, March 09, 2006

haiix..todae so siianx lahx..hmm....
neber go school todae.haiixx
cause i woke up late..yup
den early morning wendy msg miie
ask miie go school and stuff
tricia msg miie too.hahax..but...
i went back to slp lahx.hehex
my father ask miie to wake up
but i still continue slping.hahax
surprise he allow miie stay at home can
he say even if euu dun wan go school
oso muz wake up and study at home
is like whatevre okay..hmmm..
but i still went to sleep back.hehex
den after wake up cook my lunch
i cook until the pot turn black can
hahx.i know i abit failure lahx..
hmm..msg alot of ppl after that
tink my phone bill will bomb siia
oh baby sprain her ankle..haix
so poor thing lahx..haiyo
den after baby call miie..hehex
ii was so happy ookay!!yup
cause after waiting for like so long
she finally call miie and sms miie too
euu ppl will nort no how happy i am
okay whatever lahx..yup..hmm..
den after baby told miie something
something which i didn't wan to know
something which make miie sad
haix..i reali do hate her alright.
i reali do..haix..i dunnoe oso
ii reali hope ii dunnoe anything
my heart reali hurts right now
ii dunnoe whom to believe right now
is everything just a lie??
or everything was a reality..haix
i reali will breakdown right now
i will continue cutting my hand again
haix..looks like i will give up on you soon
cause i can no longer take the pain
its far too much for miie to bear.haix
i nid my baby right here with miie
but does she know i need her??haix

5:32 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

even if you were just an illusion,
even if you were just a dream.
even if you were just a fantasy..
i wouldn't let you go.
because i know you're the only one for me,
and i'm the only for you.
with these three words,
i say iloveyou. (:

the times with cousin.
i miss those times..haix

3:25 PM

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain,
every time I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart,where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

Walked through the park,
in the evening air
I heard a voice and
I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

2:49 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

todae went tiong with steph
den after we went to meet weisuan
den after went around to slack
took neoprint..so lousy lahx
the ink shit like hell lahx..idiot
den after bernice came lor.
hahax..went mac to slack..
den after weisuan left.hmm...
cause she nid go for tuition lahx
den after we went great world
saw shirley,bertram and manting
shirley so cute lahx..hahax
den after saw huiting and jackfruit
den after huiting came hugging miie
after clarice came find us lahx
haix..they were toking abt ____
ii reali dunnoe what should i do
should i continue or should i leave?
i'm reali confuse..i reali do..
ii feel like breaking down right now.
i know everyone is concern for me
but i reali got no choice lahx..haix
i can only continue cutting myself
i think thats the best way..haix
i reali love you too much to let go
people asking miie to give up
but ii reali cantt bear..haix
cause ii love you so deeply.
i reali dun wanna let go baby.haix
ii dunnoe how will i live on
if ii dunn have you in my life..haix
baby can you promise me something
pls dun hurt miie anymore.
cause ii cantt take it anymore..haix

baby is this what you wan from me??
is this how you wanna hurt me?haix
baby why you dun seem to feel anything
am i reali important in your heart?
ii dunnoe if i can trust you anymore
cause i reali cantt take it anymore
i reali wan to breakdown.haix

1:31 AM