Monday, January 30, 2006
todae another day have pass.haix....so sianx lahxytd went to grandma hse den uncle hse.collected alot of ang bao but i was not happy at allokok i know i am mad lahx.got money oso not happybut anyway my uncle hire the lion dance.around 6 plus they came my uncle hse.haixwas like damm funny can.i down there keep laughingcause the lion dance ppl is i know de.hahax.den my mother was like damm idiot lahx.keep asking me which is my frenz lahx.so ass lahxden somemore ask me go ask for discount.wtfi was like damm malu lahx.so lame can...anyway after we gamble for a while.haixmy luck was not reali very good.i lose moneyits like so funny lahx.win lose win lose.hahaxand plus we never lose alot.of nvm lahxeveryone was happy can liao..hehex..around 11 plus went home..so early lahxcame home get scolded by my father lahxsay what i push his hand away.fuck cani nv even push his hand away lor.so idiotanyway after went home to cry lahx..not cry because i got scolded lahx.but butcry because my heart suddenly feel so hurti couldn't take it anymore and i broke downso i decided to msg you.and you replyfinally i recieve a msg from you.i was so happyand after you call me too.i more happy lahxi was like omg.finally you call me.i nearly tears.but i know i must control.and ya i did it..cause its what i promise youi promise you nv to drop tearss in front of you.baby i think i am falling deeply for you...should i stop falling deeply for you?i dunnoe.haixi just dun wanna get hurt anymore.everything was just enough for me to take it anymoreanyway shall blog more tml or at night bahx..[dun sae sorri to me if you dun mean it][cause my heart cantt take it anymore][i'm left broken-hearted]
10:55 AM
Sunday, January 29, 2006
its been a long time since i blog lahx.haixanyway ytd went to meet nicklaus.nicklaus was nice to treat me eat.hahaxthanks alot to her lahx.she so nice..after went to arcade there.she so badleft her frenz outside the arcade.in the end her frenz left.so ya..saw ah boy at arcade lahx.was so surprisedits like so long nv see him liao lahxhe is still the same old ah boy.hahaxwearing that stupid pair of shoes..but his dressing change abit lahx.tat day he wear so like small kids lahx.okok den jiabao came.went to meet hershe wear until so damm hot lahx.shall not say what happen after that.weisuan came to meet us lor.den went bugisbought shirt.finally bought a green colour shirti mean its the first green shirt i have.okok watever.i kknow i am damm lameafter meet steph,huiyu and shiyun.den after shopping for a while,we went townden went far east there to shop lahx.after went seperate ways lor.so so some and weisuan went home.so guai lahxhahax.cause weisuan got tuition...and i got reunion dinner at uncle hse.hahaxso after reach home take my stuffand took a mrt to uncle hse.nearly get lostbut still manage to find my way there lahx.anyway just went to read joan blog lahxxsaw the entries she write.i know i am in the wrongi'm sorry joan.i was angry that momentso i wrote all those shit thing.haix but nvmi know you are still angry with me.so be it tooand for your info.i nv hate you at all.yai only say it but i dun mean it at all.yawell nvm.i will not ask for ur forgivenessi know all this is i deserve de.so ya.haixbaby i miss you so much.i wan see you nowi miss ur touch.i miss your hug.i miss your kissi miss everything part of you.i reali do babyi reali do love you.you werre my whole worldi just wanna say i will love you 1314.and you know my love for you wil never change.and baby i guess i never tell you before.tat how much i love you.i'm happy that ur're minei promise i will never ever let you go.haixand baby you are always on my mind.my mind is only thinking of you and nothing elsei hope you can feel how much i love you
1:52 AM
Sunday, January 22, 2006
ytd went to great world lahx.damm sianz can.
no one was there lahx.okay whatever sia.
after me and weisuan go town cut hair
my hair totally look the same lahx.no changes
cause i just thinner my hair only.so ya
after went to shop around for clothes
cannot find any nice wan lahx.fuck sia.
after father fretch me go uncle house.
after went to help do things lor.it was so cool
tat was like the first time i do new year goodies
but the cleaning up was like damm horrible.
i help wash the floor lahx.so tired can.omg
now my hand is aching like hell.idiot lahx
den plus ytd i injure my hand.more worse
well nvm.at least i did clean up the whole place
after went home tok to someone on the phone.
shall not reveal who lahx.hahax.was so tired lahx
so just tok a while den i go slp le.sad sad sia
ytd father tok to me again lahx.he saw my blog
okay i mean thats like whatever lahx.well nvm
he say i should not blame ting for anything
cause jovy chose her and not me de.haiz
but i seriously just hate her lor.i reali do lahx
all this hurt i have now is all from her.
first time i get hurt so badly lahx.first time lahx
guess my kor,frenzs and cousins all know lahx
they know how much i love her and what i get??
i get nothing but just hurt lahx.my hearts hurts
i hope i can be back the old sherlyn but i cannot
no matter how hard i try to smile,i just cannot
all those smiles were just so fake.i seem happy
but right in my heart i am not happy at all.
i hope i can just give up everything here and leave
but i know i cannot.haiz i seriously dunnoe oso
recently so many things happen.haiz.so stress
who reali know what i'm going through.haiz
i just hate what i am going through right now.
i was thinking of ending my life before.
but i guess it was too stupid bahx.i reali dunnoe
my mind totally is like so confuse right now.
think shall end here first bahx.cause i going out
so shall blog more at nitex[i nid euu here by my side.][i'm just so lost without euu]
12:52 PM
Friday, January 20, 2006
haven't been blogging like damm long lahx.hmm..shall say what happen ytd first.recess went to find ting they all tok again.ting was kind of denying what she have say lahxjoan was being nice.say the truth ya.in the end ting oso got nothing say lahx.fuck siashe say what we are going against her.omgthats not the truth lahx.she started all this firstand joan go tell jovy say everything i start firstjovy knows i am not the 1 lahx.its obviousting just go tell ppl say we find trouble with herwhere she nv tell ppl she make us first..okay watever.everyone listen to her onlybut have any 1 listen to my part of story beforeshe was the 1 that spread around and stuff lahxden she fucking hell push it to me.she even told syl that i was the 1 that start everything lai hear le damm fucking angry okay.fuck.i'm not going to forgive her sia.i will hate heru ppl may say i am unreasonable lahx.but whatever okay.i will hate her for lifeshe was the 1 that make me suffer lahx.make me cry every nitex.fuck i hate hersomemore steal jovy from me.well well nvmi dun wanna say too much too lahx.ya.hmm...kathy asking me go lucky plaza lahxdunnoe whether should go or should not.haizbut later going meet weisuan and stephwe going pplay pool.haiz.so bored right nowblog more at nitex
3:49 PM
Monday, January 16, 2006
todae damm sianz lahx.nv go school againnbecoz i was havng some cramps lahx.it was like so damm damm painful lahx.okay whatever lahx.change subject bahxhmm.ytd went uncle house to eat.hahaxthe food there was like nice lahx.i enjoy canden aftter play with the baby.so cuteshe was smiling to me all the time lahx.my father keep disturbing lahx.idiot canthe baby is soo soo de cute lahx.hahax.i am miss playing with her can.haizwatevertold my parents abt evrything lahx..my father was quite angry!not with me of coursehahax.its nice being daddy girl okay..i mean my father dote on me so much laahxden why i got any problem he will help me.thats like so damm cool lahx.thanks alot daddysimple loves them so much okay!hahaxthough sumtimes i hate them for sum things.but the hate won't last long!hahax.yajust update my another blog.so can go seeonly some ppl are allow cause u need pwd.i will not anyhow give ppl de.so need ask methose ppl who dunnoe whats the address den forget itdun even bother to visit it lahx.cause you ppl are just wasting your own time ya.oh anyway recently i have been quite 'scared'cause of some things.so scared sia.hahax.its so funny okay!i'm not going to share it ya.hmm....anyway now everything is peace le.we dun find each other trouble liao.hahax.maybe becoz i dun go school often tats why.hahaxxanyway tat time steph phua say mummy on msn lahxi got shock.hahax!but i was not there at the momenti was in my room doing myy things.hahax.lalala.now so bored lahx.dunnoe can do what toomaybe i shall go slp bahx.i will feel better ya.hahaxoh i might not be getting my phone soon lahx.so those ppl who msg me pls dun msg anymore ya.wait till i get my new line den i contact back u all.i feel so heartpain lahx.all my msg inside goneaaahhhh!!!whatever sia.my precious msg.but now its gone oso good lahx.no more bad memoriesmaybe i will feel better ya.who knows right.hahax*[i love you baby.pls dun doubt mecause i meant what i say]*
11:30 PM
just came from great world not long lahx.
went to meet weisuan and steph first
the place never open again lahx.watever k
waste my time going there to study.
after head down to great world there.
saw bertram,manting,shirley and clarice.
after clarice follow us lor.went kfc to slack
so me and clarice went to order food lahx
the chicken they gave me reali sucks lahx.
omg!i just cannot stand the taste lahx.
so clarice help me go change the chicken
the next time chicken was better okay.
it reali taste damm nice lahx.hahax.
after huiting didi went to work.saw her
den slack a while she ask me go toilet.
so i went to find her tok abt ting thing.
she told me the chance of patching is low
haiz.seriously i reali feel damm sad for her
but i still got ask her muz jia you lahx.
i think ting will patch with her de.yup
i mean i dunnoe lahx.but i do hope they patch
i wish them all the best lor.muz jia you
okay i think that all for todae lahx.
shall blog more tml lor.before i end here
i wan say FUCKING BITCH I HATE YOU
SO DUN COME READ MY BLOG YA FUCK
10:28 PM
Saturday, January 14, 2006
ytd went tiong with weisuan and stephanie.
after saw jiabao at long john lahx.omg can.
its like its been so long since i see her lahx.
okok wtever lahx.bertram and manting came
they was clever to find me at kopitiam lahx.
after they leave liao,clarice came up lahx.wtf
ok nvm!anyway ytd was a long day.
went back home at 9 plus lahx.damm tireddunnoe why i feel so tired too.its damm early lahxmaybe it was a boring day for me or not.i dunnoe what i thinking too.haiz.todae wake up oso damm sianz.haizmaybe later going out with weisuan go cut hairi dunnoe if i cutting lahx.maybe i cut bahxsince mrs chu wanted me to cut so badly.haizthink later maybe goinng town or sumthing.todae damm suck.i dun like todae.aahhh!!anyway i thought the matter have already stopbut i guess its getting more and more trouble.maybe right from the start i started this firstbut if she nv peng wei,i guess everything was okaybut too bad.they chose to lie to me.so too bad.now we became like this le.dun think can rewind backso i shall leave it the way it is.i dun wanna care le.cause if i care more,it will become worse.haiz.well forrget it.i dunnoe oso lahx.damm confuse now.well if you ppl think i am unreasonable so be it.think what u wan of me.stubborn,attitude girl so be iti am a bitch,slut,spoilt girl or anything so be it.i dun give a fucking care anymore.fuck lahx.and for ur info ppl i was not the 1 that scold u pplit was only steph and weisuan keep scolding de okay.fuckand before saying us pls ask yourself first.what did u do to us that why we scold you ppl de.dun keep pushing the blame on us when u haven ask urself.i think u ppl should ask urself why we will scold u all.well if u ppl forget.i kindly hope u ppl recall backcause we dun scold ppl for nothing de lahx.we are not so free.we got better things to do.yaso gladly go ask urself wht u have done.seriously i dun think i am in the wrong okay.u ppl might disagree buut i dun fucking care.
1:17 PM
Thursday, January 12, 2006
todae nv go school again!damm sianz lahx. this morning my father tok to me lahx.he knows abt jovy that thing le.haizthis mornig i cry in front of him.i was like so malu lahx..well well nvmhe ask me what for i hold on after she hurt mei did not tel him any answer.i just start to tearsin my heart i know i still love her.but forget itlike what he say.wat past is past.no use holding on when u know she dun like uforget it lahhx.change subject
hmm..anyway ytd went gwc with weisuan
meet clarice,manting,shirley and huiting
my didi so sad lahx.poor her okay!
i pity her so much!haix.didi cheer up
though i dunnoe whats going on lahx.
but i know ting didn't mean it de lahx.
so cheer up okay!jie will support u de
hmm..jovy came to meet us lahx.
damm shit okay!shall not say too much
saw andrew too.he damm funny lahx
the fucking shoe too big for him liao
hahax.and agin he make my hair.fuck sia
but at least i make him back ya.
now weisuan at my hse lahx.so funnny
she wwas stuck outside my hse just now
she tel me some things lahx.wasn't happy
but nvm!its okay.anyway i told my cousin abt it
they told me things but i'm not going to say out lahx
alot of ppl know abt this lahx.hahax damm funny
they spread here and there like wtf can.just knew huiting and ting break le.so sad canhuiting damm sad lahx.i see her so poor thinghaiz.as her jie i oso dunnoe how help her.looks like everything is wrong right now.haizi dunnoe how clear all this shit lahx.sorbsorb*everynight i start to tears.i dunnoe why toosuddenly aall memories just come back.haizseriuosly i think i shall just forget everything lahxmaybe i start a new life with someone else.haaizmaybe i might feel better or might not.i dunnoe tooall i knoe my heart will not be complete anymore
8:44 PM
Monday, January 09, 2006
todae was damm dao mei lahx..i hate todae.
today is definetly not a good day for me.
todae went to scold nu er and another nu er.
seriously i dunnoe wtf is going on lahx.
everyone telling me different things..
ask bernice abt the ting thing she deny.
den ask steph phua she admit.damm shit lahx
i dunnoe who is talking the real thing okay.
so fuck up lahx.i hate it sia!watever lahx.
i know steph now hate me for scolding her
but i got no choice.i have to scold lahx
everyone is lyingg here and there.omg can
i am like totally confuse lahx.wtf lahx.
maybe i might be in the wrong for scolding thhem
but whatever lahx.i already scold liao
cannot change back le!scolded weisuan too
haiya i oso dunnoe whats wrong with me now lahx.
everything is like so confuse can.
some help her some help me!seriously i very blur
i dunnoe who is helping me now lahx.
it seem like steph and bernice helping ting
but i dun mind.they wan help who is their choice
if u think i scolded the wrong person den i'm sorry
i know sorry will not work now.but watever
i already say sorry.up to you whether u wan accept
i cannot do much too.ya.i am confuse right now
just heard some things and i know trouble will come again
i dunnoe if that person is lying to me or what
but i hope watever she say its true okay.yup
and i hope she will not bertray me lahx.i dunnoe oso
but if she bertray me,den good luck to her
i make sure she suffer the consequences lahx
i am not using any gang to find her.so no worries
but i will find her mayself.so she better dun lie ya
haiz i got nothing to say now.dun wanna say much too
i just hate myself and everything right now.
i didn't wan things to turn out this way.haiz
but now it seem everything just go wrong!i'm lost.
i'm seriously lost right now.can someone help me
i cry todae again!i dunnnoe why too.
i just feel hurt and everything right now
haiz.words cannot describe how i feel now.
11:29 PM
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
ytd first day of school damm sianz lahx.haizafter school went tiong with nu er!hahax.i thought i saw ah boon lahx.but den in the end notso guess what!i alight the bus i saw ah boon can.i was there laughing like hell.clarice was there tooso they walk over and i say hi to stephanie.after went inside tiong saw bertram,shirly,janet and lydiaall say hi to me and i say hi back.was so funny can!tiong is like totally alot of people lahx.damm crowdedafter that went to kpoitiam.shuyi saw me lahxshe wave at me i nv see can!until nu er told me.hahaxbut in the end i was like nice to wave back!hahax.okok i know i am not nice lahx.but at least i wave backden in the end we ate at long john lahx.hahaxsaw ting ting lahx.she wave at me can!hahax..den after clarice,bertram,stephanie and the bf camei told clarice ting was there and she mistaken can.i meant the outram ting ting but she tink its ting.hahaxden stephanie was like the most funny de can!she go say ting bring how many ppl with her.hahaxden in the end i say its outram ting.i laugh like hell laxhthey were like on those fighting kind of spirit liao.hahaxokokwhatever lahx.told everything to my cousins.hahax.shall not mention what they told us lahx.only clarice,weisuan,me and jiabao know abt it.okok thats abt ytd!shall not say much too.todae as usual went tiong with steph lahx.but guess whatnicklaus follow us okay!i was like damm surprised.okok whatever.we were waiting for clarice goh lahx.den after forget what happen le.after she left,clarice cameden after ask me go long john cause bertram ask me go deheard got someone wan beat him or something.yupso i go down but the person leave liao.haix so sad.but i seriously dun understand why ronald wanna beat him.okok whatever lahx.todae went settle ting the thing.guess everything is clear le bahx.ya should beso i'm askign those whom i dunnoe de dun read my blog.or else more trouble will come out.ya.anyway shall blog more tml bahx.
10:47 PM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
i'm damm damm tired now lahx.haizytd went out for countdown.fun canreach home at abt 5 plus in the morning.i wasted alot of money on cab can!anyway meet kathy and marcus!we all tok alot lahx.have fun too.clarice first time meet them she was scare kbut after a while she okay liao lahx.kathy and marcus quite friendly.hahaxwe all keep toking abt gang stuff lahx.marucs start the stupid topic wan lahx.me and kathy down there sianz sianzhahax.okok whatever lahx.so idioti mean new year tok abt gang thingden after we went bukit purmei therewent to this uncle house.dunnoe who lahxbut he believe in thai god de!hahax.so we told him abt kathy mother caseanyway after leave his house,we went to eatmarcus pay for all of us lahx.thanks alotbut when we were walking there,got 3 girls and 1 boy look at us.idiot lahxden marucs suddenly shout at them'kua si mi lan jiao'its damm loud canin the end the guy oso walk away lahx.damm humji can!so humji still wan starei got a shock can!i thought what happen.hmm.well well nvm!after tat we went homei send clarice home den i go homewasted so much on cab!singapore transport suxwhy can't they make bus 24 hoursalways after certain time no bus liaoden the stupid taxi got night charge!damm shitall can go die can!i think i spend around 70 on cabdamm shit lahx.but no choice lahx.later going for dinner at town there with cousinsdamm sianx lahx.but have to go so no choicesuppose go out wit weisuan de!in the end cancelcause i got something on lahx.haiz!well nvmblog more tml!i need catch somemore slp nowtake care ppl!happy new year too...
6:02 PM
