Wednesday, November 30, 2005

I will love you till the end of time
With every breath of mine,
I’ll hold you by my side
But I rest in peace,
my sweet heart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I’ll close my eyes and dream a little more
yes baby.only u can change my world..
bringing me out of the darkness...i nid euu..
i still holding on!dun wanna let go.
i still love you and miss you..i reali do..
i miss the happy times we had together..
my mind is still all about you..
you have never ever left my mind..
do you still love me?i wonder.....
heard many things recently...
and it reali breaks my heart.i'm hurt
do you know??do you care??
well lucky i still got my kor and frenz..
and steph,xbb and baby xing...
i am already happy liao!<3<3
thanks for hearing me say those nonsense
and thanks for comforting me..
thanks alot ppl..you guys rawks
but you ppl know i'm still sad right..
well i would try my best to smile alright..
thanks andrew korkor!you reali rawks.
you cheer me up with ur jokes.thanks
1 day muz meet up alright.i miss you can
anyway how have you been ar?
so long nv go bedok find you liao!
hmm...oso muz thanks my nu er lahx.
she totally rawks okay!keep me update de
hmm...mummy love nu er lots alright..
i'm trying my best to smile everyday now.
though you may see me happily outside
but inside i'm screaming for help!haiz...
i reali hope i can turn back the time.
where all the misunderstanding are gone.
i'm reali reali tired now!i need a break...
i seriously need 1!if not i will die man.
i miss you i miss you like crazy now....
baby you make me so crazy over you..
i nv regret loving you!and i will nv regret
cause my love for you was so strong.
i know you may not like me already..
but you can't stop me from loving you....
and i learn a lesson from someone...
if you truly love someone,
no matter how much she/he hurt you,
you would still forgive that person
cause the love between both of them
are just too strong to feel any other things..
hmm.shall blog more at night!....

4:19 PM

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Just came back from clementi!!
todae wasn't my day alright.
bertram and shirley came my house
den after we went to clementi..
saw sylvia and mel!ok well well..
went inside counselling centre..
saw jovy and clarice inside!well
we seem so cold to each other..
as in me,betram and shirley
were like against jovy n clarice.
hmm..well i dunnoe why too.
they are unhappy with me i think
because of shirley that thing..
well i already say i dun like her
nvm!think what you all wan..
anyway you all oso disown me liao
so forget it!i dun wanna care anymore.
just now went mac eat!shirley treat
thanks alot.because i got no money!
well after janet,lydia and mickey came.
something happen lah.dun wish to ssay
thanks betram and shirley!thanks alot
you 2 help me..thanks for tat..thanks.
just now sat in the bus for 45 mins can
but well.i think alot of things...
so can say the 45 mins was worth it...
was just thinking between both of us..
i still love you!yes i still do....
i dun wanna hide my feelings anymore.
cause the feeling totally sucks..it do!
tat time tok to xbb online,
she was like asking me about that matter
why dun give her another chance??
i say out all the things lahx...and she say
den u prefer to make urself miserable now?
well to me i dun mind being miserable...
just to see her happy!i rather walk away..
if letting her go,she will be happy.i dun mind
i rather i'll be the 1 that suffer and not her..
well now it seems my heart is getting worse..
the hurt i recieve is more den enough...
i reali cannot take it anymore..i wan to cry
i wan to breakdown and cry!i had enough...
and now you disown me liao.i'm hurt more..
i just dunnoe why things become like this??
because of that matter you all like tat..wth
well forget it!forget it..i shall forget everything
disown all you all wan!do watever you all wan..
i not going to care anymore!i hack care liao...
i reali give up on everything now...even you too
i would try my best to forget you.yes i will
i wish you and her all the best!treasure her...
well tats all i got to say...take care ppl..

2:35 AM

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Todae went for piano lesson lahx..phew
nothing happen to me todae can..lucky
todae i was like damm scare okay..
when mrs tan say she wanted to tok 2 me
i was like damm fucking scare lahx..
but in the end it was nothing lahx...
well after piano,shirley and bertram came
den we went to eat katong laksa...
after tat headed to great world!hmm.....
saw bertram parents lahx...well well..
saw edsel too!he look so toot now.hahax
den went arcade there to slack...
again got very little people..hahax..
den when go down,saw andrew!idiot ppl
wanted to mess up my hair again.well
but i still manage to run away lor.
after went to shirley house there slack..
den after they send me home
den when to eat dinner at chinatown..
after eating,they came my house lahx...
damm fucking idiot can!they smoke lahx..
well bertram and my bro fight...
den next i fight with him lahx..idiot can
betram say my leg was damm strong lahx
i just kick him,he move a few step back..
den fight with him for quite long....
he punch my back lahx...damm hard can
i mean he was jst testing to see if i can take it
he say i am like about 70%..hahax.well well
to me its already counted good liao..
cause i so skinny den can still fight.hahax
bertram say he pei fu me lahx....
cause we both can fight till so long
and we both nv surrender!we draw can...
den he say if me and clarice daddy fight,
i might win!but its 50-50 lahx..hahax
i'm happy tat i am like same as clarice
cause i am like damm fucking skinny
den i can still fight!hmm.....not bad
but now my back damm pain lahhx...
hmm...i am going to dye my hair red
maybe pink too!hehex...shall see first
but most of all muz re born hair!
but my fucking money lost!wtf can

11:32 PM

ytd was like damm fun lahx..enjoy*
suppose to meet shirley they all..
but mother dun allow me go out..
andrew ask me out too!but sorry..
my mother is strict with me lahx.
so in the end went cousin house.
went to eat together first...
den after went her house to slack
hmm..she told me alot of things la
so confirm todae dying liao...
ytd tok to jovy online!!hehex...
we 2 insane de!keep sending song
hahax...well den i was being crazy
i ask alot of people go sleep
and they so listen to me lahx...
they reali go slp and leave me alone.
but lucky got baby duck,bbaby xing.
and steph to accompany me tok
very good very good..hahax!!
later going for piano lesson....
i am like damm dua pai can...hahax
shirley,bertram,hui ting,ting ting,
mickey and janet going with me...
hahax.but i guess only shirley bahx
cause the rest should be slping now...
they haven wake up yet!well well....
cannot blame cause its early now..
if not for the piano,i now still slping
hmm...xbb ur post referring to who ar?
so good to that person.hmm.....very good
hehex.got chance muz tel me who hor...
baby duck!i wan the mickey shirt...
but just nice that person have!aaahhhhhh!
i wanna kill her can!!if i can lahx...
hmm...anyway getting ready liao..
so shall blog more at night!bye bye!!!

10:43 PM

Saturday, November 26, 2005

ytd was like sucks sucks alright..hate it
ytd went out with babyxing,xbb and steph
xbb and steph was like so nice alright...
xbb bought me sweets!(dunnoe how spell)
steph bought me the chocolate fondue...
it was fucking nice okay!love it lots...
hmm.i love steph and xbb like hell
they just simply treat me so nice..hehex
left town around 8 i think....
den when great world meet them.hehex...
saw alot of ppl can!happy happy sia...
saw ting ting,huiting,shirley,alex,andrew n ah boy
wanted to go home liao!but bertram ask me stay
cause he say he was like on the way!hahax...
so we went back there and went arcade there..
saw weiliang that group!!arcade seem crowded..
hahax...after tat bertram came liao.hmm......
den got some conflict happen lahx.dunnoe how say
well!den i dunnoe what to say liao!hmm........
i just hope everything will be over soon..
cause the feeling reali suck being stuck in middle
hmm.going settle things later.so blog later
well ytd huiting become my didi liao!not bad...

4:42 PM

Friday, November 25, 2005

Ytd was being a guaikia lahx...happy
went for piano lesson!surprised sia...
i can actually stay for 1 hour plus...
wow tat was like some miracle okay!
anyway after went great world lahx...
2 days nv go there le!miracle lor.hahax
met shirley,ting and hui ting first!
lydia,janet and bertram haven come.
went there till 5 plus i left!!
shirley was angry!! sorry anyway...
i'm more mad with the andrew can..
this idiot fellow wake me up at 11 plus
but thanks lahx.if not i will be late 4 lesson
but he is being nice okay!!
as me go rest abit more den wake up.hehe
but yet he is being another ass again...
ask me go great world!!den what happen.
he was not even there!idiot fellow.lie 2 me
the arcade was like damm quiet lahx...
only saw weiliang that group there...
the rest dunnow die till where le..well well.
after i left not long,think lydia and bertram come
well nvm..i was so fucking jealous can..
they go play pool lahx..idiot idiot sia.well nvm
i love my baby duck like hell okay!!!
not going to say anything about it le..hehex
i'm just fucking happy lahx...<3<3
well going out with steph soon....getting ready now
sorry xbb!cannot go find u and baby xing..
nxt time den meet again okay!!

4:23 PM

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

THE HAPPY MEMORIES REMAINS
it will always remains in my heart...
never will i forget those days..
this i promise you!!!<3<3wee*
i'm happy right now!so damm happy...
going crazy soon alright!i love todae
someone totally make my day!love love..
well todae going to stay at home!be guaikia
i just dun feel like going out lahx..
sorry to clarice daddy,shirley,bertram and all
well i think i will stay at home for whole week
cause i got no money!its so important...
having cold war with father!tats why....sad sad
hope i can have money soon!tat will be good..
shirley was being good ok!wanted to sponsor me
but i not so bad lahx.i reject!hahax..well well
thanks i got nice frenz around me...<3<3
well i hope u will not mention her anymore.
i just feel so fucking jealous!i hate it..
i hate the feeling of being jealous!it sucks
well i'm not going to make myself sad..
i'm suppose to be like damm fucking happy.
i wan to re born my hair!but i think its funny
i imagine myself being some shit after the re born
and i'm still unsure if i should go re born!
this few days the weather is like damm horrible.
keep raining!omg it suckx alright.....but well
i oso cannot do anything!i'm not god!...
i cannot change the weather!i hate rainy day
cause i'm afraid of thunder and lightning..
last time someone would be there for me
telling me tat she will always be beside me..
and ask me not to scare of those thunder...
and tok to me throughout the whole night
till it stop raining!you make me warm..
i wasn't feeling cold on rainy day
because i know you will always be there for me.
when i'm cold!you offer me ur hug!
and make me feel so warm!i miss those days
but now everything is over!its over...
now when its rainy day,i felt so alone and cold
theres no 1 there to offer me their hug...
no 1 talk to me when there is thunder and lightning
theres no 1 to accompany me through the nitex...
maybe its my fault to let you go!i'm sorry!
i won't wan a patch back because of some things....
i'm sorry!in my heart,i truly wan u back
but i got to act strong saying i dun need you...
because i dun wanna get hurt anymore.
but yet i still wan you back!haiz
am i reali very greedy!prehaps i am.

ni hai ai wo ma???
yi zhi heng xiang wen ni zhe jiu hua...

3:42 PM

Monday, November 21, 2005

I'M FUCKING JEALOUS RIGHT NOW
i dunnoe why am i feeling this now
well i dun wanna say much about it now..
todae staying at home!sianz sianz..
but who ask it to rain!i hate rainy day
cause always when go out the floor wet
den walk the water splash here and there
i just hate it!so stay at home best..hehex
shirley they all wanted come find me
i rejected them!cause they will mess up..
so i rather not!i rather be alone at home.
todae skip piano lesson!because i'm sick
idiot mother dun believe nvm!fuck sia
forget it!i dun wana blog anymore.......

4:04 PM

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Todae was like damm fucking sianz lahx...
went great world for a while den left!!
because have to go cousin house..sianz
went great world till 5 plus before leaving...
todae great world was like damm quiet lahx
only saw andrew at arcade!the rest is kids...
well after went kfc!jovy and clarice working...
so nvm!we went mac there to slack....
idiot andrew dun wan let me leave!nvm
fought with him for a while!but i lose.hahax
well after went kfc!saw huiting..hahax.....
shirley and hui ting damm nice alright.....
we from great world walk till outram mrt!!
they wanted to escorts me to mrt!!hahax...
the distance was like damm fucking long lahx...
after took mrt to sengkang!was damm idiot
the fucking journey was long lahx......
and worse!i got to stand in the crowd..
alot of indian people can!scary scary....
and i was like damm tired!wanted to sit
but there is no place!!wanted a seat so badly
i mean after walking a long journey,
i just wanted to sit!but i can't...well well
reach sengkang den change to take lrt!!!
was like standing again!wanted to kill myself.
after reach le,it start to rain lahx...damm sway
and i lost my way!i didn't know where it was
so i got no choice but to anyhow walk........
but in the end sstill found it lahx...hahax
reach there and everyone was like damm idiot
say da xiao jie lai liao!was damm idiot can.....
lucky i afternoon never go can!!lucky
heard from all the aunty uncles and parents
the relative all wanted to see me!!!
but i came like too late...i was lucky!hahax

11:52 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERTRAM!!!
I OWE U ALOT OF PUNCH HOR
YOU BETTER LET ME BEAT!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANTING
STAY PRETTY ALWAYS..
Hmm.just reach home!so tired can....
well todae went shirley house find her
when i was downstairs her house,
i saw alex!he was going down to temple
so waited for a while before shirley came
went great world to buy sushi for her mum
den after went back to her house there....
after we went back great world!crazy can
den after went kfc to eat...was like damm full
saw alot of peole can!!saw xinyi tat group lahx
den after saw ah boy tat group!sway*hahax
slack at kfc for a while!was waiting for bretram
den after he come liao,we went arcade to play
after andrew cal me!well tok to him for quite long
he bluff me lahx...say nv come great world!!
in the end he was found outside kfc!fucker can
went back arcade to slack again!was damm sianz
so we go play pool!andrew dun wan lend his ic
so in the end we hack care him and left!!
i use my ez-link card and they accept!hehex...
not bad not bad!play for like 2 hour plus.....
i win bertram alot of games lahx..happy happy
after huiting and ting ting and andrew came
they play for quite a while den go liao.....
saw kenny tat group lahx.but nvm...
so went back to great world arcade!
den after lydia and janet join us
slack there!!after me and shirley went mac
after a while,they all come down find us.....
lydia and janet damm violent can...omg
anyway we were like damm noisy!!
we throw things on the floor lahx...
the person scold us can!but we say her
we say is the thing ownself fly de..hahax
after clarice and alex came to find us
they 2 seem like so extra can!!hahax...
wanted to go kfc de!but idiot bertram
he block my fucking way can!!idiot lahx
so i stand on the chair!wanted to climb over
but he push the table towards the glass...
the impact was like damm loud can!!
everyone was looking at us...paiseh!!
so in the end we just left mac!hahax...
went inside kfc!we hurry run out
when we heard the manager voice!hahax......
in the end slack outside mac for a while!!
lydia and janet left!andrew left too..
huiting and ting ting left tooo........
so only left alex,me,clarice andd shirley
alex left for him temple lahx.......
so me,shirley and clarice went playground
wanted for bus!but it nv come.....
so we took 16,alight at the restaurant there
den walk back to my house!!scary can...
was like damm tired lahx..walk so far!hahax
thanks ar clarice and shirley <3
in the end give them money take cab home..
anyway good nitex ppl!i wan bath liao!

1:27 AM

Friday, November 18, 2005

Todae going to be guaikia.stay at home
cause todae my bro birthday den ya
and plus i make my parents angry!!
feel like damm sorry for lying to them
but since i already lie le,den ya....
ytd meet bertram first.went redhill
after tat we headed down to great world..
den after went to eat kfc!!we both share
but i gave bertram my share...
cause i was like damm full lahx....
after shirley came!den clarice came too....
met huiting and ting ting at kfc there....
den after saw ting ting!i didn't know can
until she sms me say she saw me
den i see until her de!!!hahax...well well
after accompany shirley go fretch the bro..
in the end,the bro didn't wan come out...
well wasted 1 trip to go there fretch him...
when we went back,saw janet and lydia
well i dunnoe how spell their name lahx..
den together went to kim seng plaza
andrew and bertram was playing pool!yup...
slack there a while den went back to great world
saw ah boy and the rest at mac there eating....
i was like the only person tat saw them can
so i went to tel clarice den we 2 went mac
talk to them a while den went to mac counter
the idiot wicky diturb me again!idiot sia....
i hate ah boy okay! he damm seh like tat lahx
follow my action!idiot ah boy!kill hhim sia..
went to block 91 there too slack!!wanted to drink
but yet i got to go home!cause my mum lahx
my father ask me get out of the house
so i decided not to go home!den mum keep calling
she cal steph too alright!!den steph come cal me...
so i went home!!when i boarding the bus,
i saw kenny coming down can!i was like shock
but i guess he was going temple there..well well
reach home didn't see my mother lahx
den later she came back!i'm damm sorry can
she actually went out to look for me.sorry
well i just dunnoe whats wrong with father
idiot wan can!!!!!at least mum still good
surprised they 2 nv scold me lei
somemore tok to me nicely!well good for me

2:23 PM

Thursday, November 17, 2005

hmm..ytd was horrible horrible for me!!!
went great world with weisuan first
den after bertram and shirley find us....
den bertram and weisuan got conflict
so weisuan went home!!i was left alone...
went arcade and slack for a while!!
me and shirley saw a couple so funny can
they were playing some childish game lahx
and wanted to steal the ball!was damm funny
me and shirley laugh like hell can!!hahax...
saw danping at great world too!!she went arcade
after clarice daddy came!she was being idiot...
she ignore me when i say harlo to her...
well after i kind of like say her lahx.....
lucky she nv what!if not she will die sia..
hmm..went east coast with clarice daddy
to meet rachel den ya!!was quite boring
cause after alighting the bus,
we have to take another bus!!!butt damm pain
hahax...after went clarice daddy house there
went temple a while!!saw the who there
dun reali wan step inside the temple
but no choice lahx.so i just went in!!
alex and clarice after ride bicycle!!!
clarice wanted to longbang(dunnoe how spell) me!!
she haven even ride yet,we nearly fall can
so in the end alex longbang me!!hahax...
was quite fun!but he was being an ass.
he keep braking lahx..i was so scare
i sit until the butt damm fucking pain can!!
after went coffeeshop to meet them
drank abit lahx...after took cab home!
shirley was nice!!lend me money go home!!
they were being nice people again!!
all waited for cab with me den they go...
reach home around 1 nearly to 2!yup.
i miss my andrew can!!
dun get mistaken tat its the great world wan
its my kor at bedok de!yup.....
i miss xiao ben,shawn,peiwei,tommy n lots more..
very long nv see them le!!
i hope they are doing fine....yup!!

1:12 PM

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

i hate it wen i cry.
i hate it wen its bcos of her i cry.
i hate it wen i have to call my best friend,
to tell her how much im hurting.
i hate it wen i dunno wad im thinking..
cos i dunno wad u're doing.
if you could see me now,
u'll noe how hurt am i from how hard i stare.
i no longer have the power to believe.
i no longer have to will.i can no longer lie,and say,
u're only mine.i hate u.yes..i totally hate u to the core.
and baby,im not gonna let u hurt me again.
cos dis time im leaving.
not gonna let u hurt my pride again.
enough is enough.enough hurt i got from u.
enough lies i heard.enough love i thought i had,
enough things i wanna say.

this i copy from my cousin blog de!
hmm...i dunnoe what she mean lahx
she just say this suit me!so i put it lor
well...cry last night!i hurt you again
you say u dun wanna hear me say sorry anymore
i know maybe u are angry wit me!
i'm reali sorry!i dunnoe what more to say
but just a word sorry to you!!!
a patch won't last long!!its true alright....
how can u mend back a broken heart
which was badly destoyed by you......
when things are broken,
no matter how hard you try to patch back,
there willl still be a crack there.
so i will not turn back to you anymore...
cause if we were to get back together,
i'm going to love you more each day pass
and when we break again,it will be worse
the pain inside me will hurt like hell
so i rather not!i rather leave it the way it is...
i didn't wan to end the story this way...
i wanted to end it with a happy ending...
but its over!!i'm sorry for everything.
take it as u never stead with me before
and move on!i know i am heartless........
but i got to do this!!!!!!i'm truly sorry
many ppl might say i'm heartless
or say i flirt or anything!i won't mind
cause as long as i know i truly love you
i won't mind what others say abt me
and how they see me!!!i reali won't mind
so i wish you all the best!!!
go find someone u truly love and treasure her
and dun take her for granted!!yup.

1:23 PM

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

HARLO PEOPLE!I'M CAME BACK FROM OBS!
feeling a loser right now!half way cum back
but nvm..i was feeling unwell!!so i came back
i disappoint alot of ppl there!i knwo..
but well,sorry i just wanted to go home!
the first day i reach there,i cry alright!
i mean after doing those activities!
i dunnoe why i cry too!the tears just came down
joan and ravathy was being nice!
they accompany me in the toilet!thanks
love you guys alot!!!will miss you guys too..
i'm feeling bad right now!leaving joan there
but well...lucky she got ravathy with her
cause anyway we are in different group
so not so bad lahx..took so many boat trip lahx
go here and there!total i took like 8 boat trip
before i wet back home!daddy fretch me..
he is being an idiot!he say i come back
the reason because i wan go arcade!!
tats bullshit lahx...i was reali feeling unwell...
now having flu and sore throat...idiot!!
came back called alot of people!!
all was shock i came back!hahax..nvm
i'm happy for clarice daddy!!!!happy*
but she was like damm stupid!idiot sia
dunnoe how to grap the chance given her
looks like i must teach her more.hahax
i miss you...i miss you....i miss you!!
i reali do miss you alright!!!!!haiz....
but nvm!i will miss you in my heart.

i'm trying my best to forget you
i'm not sure if i can do it!!!
i hope i can!i still love you
but i'm sorry i got to do this
i hope i will not regret it at all!!
i'm sad...i'm broken-hearted!!!

9:29 PM

Sunday, November 13, 2005

going obs tomolo!sianz sianz sianz...
i'm going to miss alot of ppl!
clarice daddy,andrew,nu er,baby xing,xbb etc
i went out with weisuan todae
went queensway buy stuff for obs
den after went great world!idiot*
clarice ask me down den in the end
she still at home waiting for mother
make me and weisuan go down
but lucky i know some ppl there..
went to tok to them!after tat,
went tuition with weisuan!damm sianz
i was like rotting outside can!
well nvm!went back to great world to eat
i was like damm hungry lahx.ate mac
after alex,bertram,clarice came
idiot ppl alright!but nvm...yup
alex was being some crazy fellow again
dun wanna say much here too.....
went home around 10 plus....
clarice daddy and weisuan ask me to pon
cause they say without me will be sianz
they being some retarded fellow lahx.nvm
but i hope i can pon!i dun wanna go....
but heard from larry it will be fun!!
so maybe i will enjoy there bah!!
well anyway going to slp now!
so when i'm back shall blog again
take care ppl! and i will miss alot of ppl.....

12:49 PM

Saturday, November 12, 2005

hmm....obs is just on monday!hate it......
i regret going now!i wan back out
but i know its impossible!!sobs*
whatever it is lahx.haven got my stuff
and its just on monday!well
think going to get them todae
or maybe tomolo!waste of time.
haiz..i'm feeling not okay now
i dunnoe what will happen
if i were to go obs!i got no mood
no mood to do anything....haiz.
things just happen so fast!
regret breaking with you now
but i dun wanna turn back!
cause i want you to move on
and find someone u reali love
anyway now u become my di le..
so nvm!i'm happy already....
anyway we do muz take care of clarice
she look kind of depressed now
because u know what lahx...
hmm..clarice coming my house soon!
to put song in her mp3!well...
anyway ppl do cheer up!!
i know many things is happening..
i just hope we can fogive and forget!
if i were to go obs,i going to miss alot of ppl
xbb,baby xing,steph,nuer,didi,daddy,clarice,andrew
cousins,godbro,jie and lots more...<3
i just going to miss them lots.....
somemore going for 5 days.can just die!!
well hope my hand recover by den!if not
i will suffer down there!
the cuts are still painful lahx..

12:15 PM

Friday, November 11, 2005

Later off to great world meet daddy!!
cause she working todae!idiot...
make me go down just to meet her!!!
well.nvm!cause i'm nice!ahem*hahax
bertram just become my godbro!!
so everything is settle le!happy
cause he won't ask for stead anymore!!
yay!!happy happy happy!
well to you:
i hope you can forget me and move on
dun bother to wait for me
cause i will nv return to your side.
you might say i'm heartless
but i'm sorry!i got to do this
cause i dun wan get hurt anymore...
though u promise clarice
tat u will turn over a new leaf..
but its just too late...
everything its too late!no turning back
if you have change earlier,
maybe i would consider going back
but now everything is reali over
i dun wanna turn back anymore!
i dun wanna get hurt anymore..
so pls forget me and move!
now we become frenzs,
we got more to tok about
not like last time!we got nthing to tok
i'm happy and contented now!!
so i wouldn't turn back anymore
i'm sorry to say thaat!but i have to
you got to give up on me!

12:41 PM

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Todae was another bad bad day...
damm fucking sway alright.
if i know i should not wait for mum
i should have just gone out...
suppose to meet clarice and bertram
but in the end i nv meet le...
cause of my idiot parents...
they scold me because i cut my hand
wanted to go out but decided not to
so here am i blogging!idiot..
well anyway todae tok to andrew..
he is being an ass!ask him out
he dun wan lahx..fuck sia.
well nvm its okay!at least he is nice
when i'm sad he cheer me up!!
nice frenz i have!thanks ar...
not forgetting steph and xbb!!!
baby xing too!i love you guys.
you guys rawks too!! <3
hmm...broke up with u ytd!
i'm sorry i make this decision!
maybe i hurt you or maybe not
i just wanna say i'm sorry!!
i break with u doesn't mean i dun love you
i just dun wanna get hurt anymore
i hope u can understand!i'm sorry
i'm feeling sad too!anyway sorry!
thanks for being with me the past 3 month plus
i reali treasure the times together!!
the reason why i break with u is not
because i wanna turn straight so easy
is just tat i know about the ting thing
will happen again!i dun wan that...
i dun wanna get hurt anymore...
cause i had enough!truly i had enough..
you might say i'm unreasonable
or selfish!i'm just sorry!!!!!!!!
maybe u should find someone better..
someone whom you reali love...
i hope you can treat that person well
and not hurt her like how u hurt me
cause the feeling reali sux.....
no one can understand the feeling...
anyway i'm sorry!everything is over.
so goodbye to you!

8:27 PM

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Hmm.....just finish toking to andrew on phone
he is being as ass okay!!!idiot freak.
fancy calling me stupid lah!idiot fellow...
well well but he is being nice ok
when i cough,he ask me go see doctor lahx
somemore say wan offer bring me go.
not bad not bad!but he is being an ass
he still lost this voice okay!
just like me..sometime can tok only...
hahax!we both are weird ppl...
fancy falling sick at the same time
todae went town with clarice and bertram
after went down to accompany shirley
bertram and shirley both cut hair lahx...
shirley bro was damm shit lahx...
i let him bully like hell can!wth lor
he box near my eyes there can!!
but i was alright..so its okay!!
den after he start making me liao
worse!!!he bite my hand lahx....
he put my shirt too!embarasssed***
well but bertram was good lahx...
at least he help me!help to fight back
so its okay lahx!he is damm naughty lahx
cannot stand him sia!he is only 6 can...
so young so violent liao!imagine big sia...
somemore he keep saying he from 18 siao
well maybe he is big shot lahx.....
after head down to great world again!!
saw andrew and man ting at kfc
she was being an ass okay!!!
when she is working she ask me go over
den say dunoe what shit de....den
the idiot manager say what working dun tok
fuck sia!!!hate her lots can....she sux
well den after tok to stupid andrew....
went to play pool den went back arcade there
idiot andrew mess up my hair!and i look like crazy ppl
but nvm!at least i hit his head...
after go home went bus stop there...
i saw some scary idiot ppl!i was so scare can..
he keep staring at me wherever i go...scary
so i cal andrew!the idiot who dun wan go home
where theres no one at great world..idiot can
but he is being an nice ass fellow again!!
he walk to the bus stop to wait bus with me
den he say he wanted to cal me too..
hahax...but i cal him first...stupid can
he wanted to return me back my comb
idiot lahx..lucky he return it to me.....
so tok at the bus stop a while den bus came
when he told me my bus was here i damm slow lahx
i dun even know anything can!!!
but lucky the bus stop for me!if not i go to wait
but that bus uncle show me a unhappy face
because i suddenly stop the bus!!
well...tomolo finding clarice and jovy
cause they are working again!!!
i wonder what i am goign to do there sia....
haiz....sob sob sia

2:18 AM

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

ytd was like sianz sianz sianz.......
i was there so bored!nth to do
went out with clarice,jovy and aqilahx
they come my house to fretch me!
and clarice was like saying i very big shot
hahax.okay i admit i was abit too much
fancy asking them to come my house..
before that was toking to andrew
he was damm idiot okay!
down there keep suan me lahx.....
we both were like damm shocked can!!
cause we both lost our voices at the same time
not reali say lost!but sumtimes can tok
hahax....damm shit!he play piano alright.
i didn't know he can play piano lahx.
until he play give me hear!hahax.......
he play quite well lahx....not bad!
after we put down the phone,clarice came!!
change and went to toa payoh to find aqilah..
went there a while den go off liao!!
clarice they all went bishan to walk walk..
i was there keeping quiet the whole time
i dunnoe why i dun wanna tok too...
maybe because i'm speechless!!well...
before boarding the mrt,andrew cal
i was like so happy can!he save my day
he always cheer me up with his nonsense!!
well talk to him awhile den rachel cal me...
after that kathy cal me go out..but i reject
cause i wanted to go home and be guaikia!!
hahax....was damm weird lahx..
at ahma house andrew cal me again!he damm shit
dunnoe why he keep calling me sia..hahax
bertram was another crazy fellow okay!!
well dun wish to say what he say to me.
hahax.but i know he very disturb can
he is obvious playing den he say he serious
i tok to him can die sia!!idiot bertram..
okok its enough of nonsense now...
time to get to real stuff!!about you
Hmm...well i still dunnoe what i want
towards you i'm speechless!i dunnoe what i wan
the way u sms me ytd seem like we already break
so maybe we are over now!so goodbye to you
thanks for being with me for 3 months....
thanks for tolerating my temper everything...
you make me feel happy for this 3 month
thanks alot..memories will be kept in my heart
will not forget we were once together..thanks
i just wanna say i'm sorry i hurt you alot of times
maybe its right you told others i keep hurting you.
at least when people come telling me,i know i hurt you
and i try my best not to hurt you anymore
but i fail!i still hurt you....i'm sorry!!
maybe tats the reason why you left me......
but anyway no use saying anymore!cause its over
goodbye to you!!!!

11:11 AM

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Todae went out with same people again!!
dun wish to mention all the name lahx...
first went to great world find them...
den after went tiong to slack a while!!
hahax..todae saw joan!!but she nv see me
well well nvm!after we seperated...
as usual i follow clarice lahx!!was weird
went arcade to find people lahx....
no people was there!it was so quiet can..
but manage to find some lahx!not too bad
that person was like crazy can!!!
he sniff glue lahx..he seem so high!!!
den in the end we pangseh him!!!
went to find jovy that group lahx...
clarice was damm angry alright!!!!so fierce
dun wish to say why she so angry lahx
cause its the same reason again!haaiz..
after jedd went to meet us!cool sia
i just cal her and she appear in front of me liao
i was like so shock lahx!so fast reach..
after went bugis there!walk awhile there
we all got seperated so we walk ourself..
in the end went back great world!!
jedd went to baby xing house to find her....
so only left me and clarice...haiz.
cal bertram to meet us at great world..
after eating,we went arcade there...
was like damm shit can!saw andrew..
he damm shit!keep on making my hair.
den keep on bully me too!idiot.....
well at least i hit him back too!not bad...
went great world till 10 plus!!!
wanted go tiong but in the end forget it..
so i went home!!!!!damm sad now..
think only clarice,rachel,bertram knows
To you:
well i think i given u alot of chance
thanks for telling me the truth.
at least i got to know everything
but i'm just disappointed in you!!
you actually flirt behind my back
you got pts i dun mind....
but why why why????
why must you do this behind my back
am i reali that bad???
you know how i felt when i know
have you ever consider my feelings???
i'm truly disappointed in you!!!
i'm speechless now!i dunnoe what to say
i dunnoe why i still treat u so good
after all those things you done to me
i even beg ppl not to whack you!!!
i dunnoe what i am doing now????
maybe its because i treat u badly!!
tats why you flirt behind my back
maybe i hurt you too much!!!
tats why you flirt!!!!i reali dunnoe
maybe i will let you go!
since you wanted to go..i will let go
i will not hold you back!!i promise
since you love her so much,
i will let you go and forget you...
To clarice:
Hmm.....daddy pls forget about it
i know you feel angry now...
but for my sake pls forget it
i dun wan things to make out big
i truly hope you and bertram will forget it
yes i truly hope so!!
u might say i soft hearted or watever
i dun care!i jus wan her be happy....
i dun wanna hold on anymore....
you all know how much i love her
so pls for my sake!forget it pls

11:16 PM

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Todae went out with my darling and clarice.
darling didn't tok much to me again...
haiz.have such a sianz day lahx..well well
first meet them at clarice house...
so after went great world arcade lor..
surprised tat no one was there lahx...
hahax!after i msg the idiot andrew
and he was at home can!was surprised..
after i told him we all come great world le...
den he is being an idiot can!dun wan reply
after staying there for a while,we left
because clarice wanted to meet her who
so when we were going down the esclator
andrew was going up can!we saw each other
and i was there laughing like crazy can
cause i was the 1 tat ask him come de...
den who knows in the end i left..hahax
leaving him to bertram!poor thing sia..
hahax!after went to find the who,
i discover sumthing!!was feeling sad
but in the end i feel much better
because i got such good frenz with me...
my xiao boy boy,clarice,daryl,ben,andew and etc
dun wish to mention too much too...
oh i got nice cousins too!they rocks
they were always there when i needed them
anyway thanks to you people...
i'm feeling much better now!!....
after went to shirley bbq there..was damm shit
so many ppl there can!and some very xialan can
we actually wanted go there whack ppl de
but that fucking person nv come lahx...
so in the end we left earlier....sad can!!!!!!!!
wanted to sit 196 home de..but............
stupid clarice wants me to accompany her
so in the end took 16 with her.
was damm cold in the bus can!!shivering**
after follow clarice to buy food den went home
before i did,i sms andrew lahx!!he damm shit
he still in great world can!was so jealous
cause he was at arcade lahx..wan kill him le
wanted go find him but he going play pool...
so in the end i went home..guaikia can!!
To jedd:
hmm..i know you very angry with her
but just control your temper abit okay
pls give me face and not scold her
i dunnoe why i so protective over her too?
haiz..maybe this is fate bahx...
or maybe i'm reali imperfect!
anyway thanks for everything!!!!!

1:33 AM

Friday, November 04, 2005

Todae was a horrible day for me!i am sick
having fever now!the feeling sux lahx
having headache and whole body pain
trying my very best to be alright...
but still fail!i still having fever..
anyway todae went town with parents..
town was totally crowded lahx....
anyway went wisma and taka to shop
i didn't enjoy myself at all lahx..
my leg is giving me problem!idiot leg...
i feel weak and couldn't walk much..
so whenever i see a chair,i would sit
i feel like i am a pig can!but its alright...
cause i am like damm damm sick!!
oh steph and danping is sick too...
hmm..anyway do take care of yourself..
try to recover as soon as possible alright
cause being sick the feeling sux...
i guess u 2 agree with me right....
i wanna thanks jedd for showing concern
thanks alot ar!but u are evil..
you wanted me to die right!dun worry
i will not die so easily de.hahax...
to my darling!thanks alot too...
sorry i couldn't meet you todae
cause i was sick!yup.hope u forgive me
baby xing!you ar!!muz cheer up alright..
forget the past and move on alright..
i guess it would be better for you.
and always remember to smile hor
dun always show sad sad face!!!
anyway wish you all the best....yup
todae clear some things out with you
and i finally get to know your feeling
maybe we should have done this earlier
so at least i know why u have been ignoring me
i'm sorry if you think i neglect you...
actually it all started with you first
you make me neglect you de!
anyway i'm sorry to make u unhappy
since u dun wan me be so close to clarice,
den i try my best not to be close to her
but you have to talk to me right..
if not i will talk to who????
anyway i'm sorry..about that matter
i think i just close 1 eyes.i dunno why too
i dunnoe why am i so good to you.
maybe its because i dun bear to lose you
but i just hope it will not repeat again
clarice was right about me....
yes i am soft-hearted!i dun deny..
but if its going to repeat again,
i promise i am not going to close 1 eye
maybe i would just break with you.
i duunnoe too...i am lost...

i truly need you by my side
would u be my guardian angel??

1:39 AM

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

i'm sorry for those things i done.
i hope you can forgive me..
i'm truly truly sorry for that!
anyway todae went to cousin house
had fun but was boring too..
played games with aaron and rachael
was like damm surprised can..
first time i play games with them..
but anyway i had fun.so who cares...
anyway i do love my cousins
i wonder how is clarice now??
dun even know if she win or lose
hope she win!if not she will be beaten
but i think maybe she wins lahx...
anyway things between us was worse
i'm truly disappointed in you
i'm totally speechless now...
and you make me speechless..
you make me see the real you
you make me feel disappointed..
you make me sad.i'm speechless
maybe i was wrong to pick you
you truly hurt me this time...
maybe other things i can forgive
but not about this matter
you make me so disappointed in you
i dun understand why you got to do this
am i reali that bad?do i deserve this??
i know i am not perfect!but why?
why do you have to bluff me??
why do you have to disappoint me?
do you know how much my heart hurts?
i hope i dunnoe about this matter
but i know its reality.so i have to face it
i feel hurt.yes i reali do feel hurt...
you make me so disappointed in you
i dunnoe what to say about you anymore.
maybe i shall just give up everything.
i think i am damm foolish now....
fancying thinking that you reali love me
and gave in everything just for you
but in the end what i get???
i get nothing from you!
i only get disappointment in you
i reali dunnoe what to say....
i'm just so disappointed in you

11:56 PM

i'm damm sad and disappointed in you.
you hurt me again!this time was worse
and again i tears for you..i feel like a fool
so all along you have been cheating me.
what have i done to deserve this???
i reali dunnoe why i still love you
after you have hurt me so much...
i reali wonder why i still love you so much?
can anyone pls give me a answer.
thanks xbb for listening to me...
you reali make me feel alot better..
thanks alot!!i feel better now..
thanks shirley too!you oso make me feel better
lucky i still got my good frenz around.
to help me get over this matter.thanks.<3
well it doesn't matter if u dun love me
as long as my frenz still love me i'm happy
cause they treat me better den u treat me
xbb is right!you dun treat me as stead..
well nvm its okay!i will accept the fact.
i will learn to forget you and everything
and start afresh again!so goodbye to you
i will not let those ppl that care for me down
i will prove to them i will forget you
and move on with my life.i know i can.
i wanna thank you for hurting me..
you make me learn something from it.
thanks to xbb and shirley and andrew and etc.
you ppl reali rawks my world alright..
with you all around,i already feel happy liao.
so thanks alot ar..take care ppl.
going to blog more tomolo!ya.

3:40 AM