thats when ii love you .

Wednesday, November 23, 2005
THE HAPPY MEMORIES REMAINSit will always remains in my heart...never will i forget those days..this i promise you!!!<3<3wee*i'm happy right now!so damm happy...going crazy soon alright!i love todaesomeone totally make my day!love love..well todae going to stay at home!be guaikiai just dun feel like going out lahx..sorry to clarice daddy,shirley,bertram and allwell i think i will stay at home for whole weekcause i got no money!its so important...having cold war with father!tats why....sad sadhope i can have money soon!tat will be good..shirley was being good ok!wanted to sponsor mebut i not so bad lahx.i reject!hahax..well wellthanks i got nice frenz around me...<3<3well i hope u will not mention her anymore.i just feel so fucking jealous!i hate it..i hate the feeling of being jealous!it suckswell i'm not going to make myself sad..i'm suppose to be like damm fucking happy.i wan to re born my hair!but i think its funnyi imagine myself being some shit after the re bornand i'm still unsure if i should go re born!this few days the weather is like damm horrible.keep raining!omg it suckx alright.....but welli oso cannot do anything!i'm not god!...i cannot change the weather!i hate rainy daycause i'm afraid of thunder and lightning..last time someone would be there for metelling me tat she will always be beside me..and ask me not to scare of those thunder...and tok to me throughout the whole nighttill it stop raining!you make me warm..i wasn't feeling cold on rainy daybecause i know you will always be there for me.when i'm cold!you offer me ur hug!and make me feel so warm!i miss those daysbut now everything is over!its over...now when its rainy day,i felt so alone and coldtheres no 1 there to offer me their hug...no 1 talk to me when there is thunder and lightningtheres no 1 to accompany me through the nitex...maybe its my fault to let you go!i'm sorry!i won't wan a patch back because of some things....i'm sorry!in my heart,i truly wan u backbut i got to act strong saying i dun need you...because i dun wanna get hurt anymore.but yet i still wan you back!haizam i reali very greedy!prehaps i am.ni hai ai wo ma???
yi zhi heng xiang wen ni zhe jiu hua...
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