thats when ii love you .
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Been crying since the daethe dae euu went away.ytd wasn't moii day..ii seriously hate ytd lahx.ii simply hate everythng right now..haiixwhy everything just go so wrong.ii hate myselfii wish ii'm dead right now.without knowing anythingytd at night recieve your msg.ii feel so sadii didn't noe what tuhh do..ii was so confused.haiixii will breakdown sooner or later.haiixii'm trying tuhh let go..but will ii succeed?ii dunnoe tooii'm so tired of crying and cutting furr euu.haiixseeing the scars on moii hand makes miie think back.think of all the happy moments we have.haiixbaby if ii have another chance given miie..ii swear ii will treasure it like hell..haiixanyway dun realii feel like blogging liao.yalynn bimbo and huiwen bimbo must cheer up horxzx. =)dun be unhappy over that thing le..yup.and its fun going out with euu guys..hehex..all so bimbo and so funny.hahax.. =)germaine oso must cheer up okiies..=)ii miss playing with euu lahx.. ya ya.haiyo anyway everyone cheer up lahx..dun wanna see euu ppl sad..yup =)
10:17 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
It has been so long since we have talkedI hope that things are still the samehoping they will never changecause what we had can't be replaceddon't let our memories fade awaykeep me in your heart for alwaysYou made me believethat I can do almost anythingstood right by methrough the tears through everythingI'll remember you,and baby that's forever trueyou're the one that I'll always missnever thought it would feel like thisI'll be there for you, no matter what you're goin' throughin my heart you'll always be, forever baby I'll remember youI promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we criedYou'll always be the sun in my skyIt may be fate that brings us back to meet again somedayEven though we go seprate waysYou made me believethat I can do almost anythingYou stood right by methrough the tears through everythingI'll remember yooooou,and baby that's forever trueyou're the one that I'll always missnever thought it would feel like thisI'll be there for yooooou, no matter what your goin' throughin my heart you'll always be, forever babyI'll remember youIf the day should come when you need someone(you know that i'll follow)I will be thereDon't ever let therebe a doubt in your mind 'cause I'll remember you, youI'll remember you,and baby that's forever trueyou're the one that I'll always missnever thought it would feel like thisI'll be there for you, no matter what your goin' throughin my heart you'll always be, forever babyI'll remember you
6:45 PM
Monday, April 24, 2006
todae was so nort nort moii day lahx..fuckgort so many trouble..so damm stressshe just msg miie some msg**haiix..so make miie wanna breakdown now..just feel like crying and cutting now..haiixbut too bad..moii penknife ishx missing nowmissing in action ya..someone help miie find!i'm in the process of letting go now..but whywhy must euu send miiee the msg??whyii wanna turn back and be with euu agaiin..but am ii verii silly..ii dun wanna get hurt anymorecause everything ishx too much furr miie tuhh beari'm realii tired of crying furr euu..haiix.i'm just so tired right now..can ii just breakdownmaybe ii should just dun care and let go..cause ii wanna see happiness and nort tears anymore.ii have ask euu tuhh give up on miie..but euu told miie euu still lurbb miie..haiixcan ii believe those word euu sae?can ii stil trust euu?euu ask miie tuhh be your pricess forever..euu say euu wanted tuhh be moii guardian angeland always be by moii side protecting miie..can ii still trust those word euu sae??haiix.i'm realii confuse right now..haiix..as furr liling..well i'm so sorriie furr todaeperhaps ii was too sensitive le..duii bu qii.everything euu say was rightt..i'm a fucking bitchi'm northing but a bitch..i'm just so tiredii dunnoe whats wrong with miie these few daysii become so sensitive over things..haiix..euu sae ii wan bu qii..thanks furr saying that..ii noe ii verii wan bu qii..haiix..ii dunnoe lahx.feel so stress right now..sorriie tuhh everyoneii guess everything was moii fault..i'm sorry
9:45 PM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
toda the weather so damm nice lahx..hahaxit rain in the afternoon den went back sunny againokiies.meet weisuan at bugis at around 12 plusden after walk around tuhh search furr bag..but none caught moii attention..so sad lahx..so after slack around there..it was so siianz ii swearden after sms the bimbo germain tuhh meet miieand after ii make moii way down tuhh tiong..went arcade there tuhh slack..was so siianz..nort long later..those 3 bimbos came...hahax..and LYNN WAS SO SEXY II TELL EUU..HAHAXSHE WAS WEARING A MINI SKIRT AND SHORT TUBEii swear she look so sexy in it alright..hahax..=)anyway those 3 bimbos are damm funny ii sweargoing out with them ishx fun..but verii malu cancause they over bimbo le..haiyo..sad case man.hahaxden after sending them all tuhh bus stop le,ii walk tuhh great world there..wanting tuhh go homebut whuu noes suddenly moii didi shouted moii nameshe was actually in the bus going home liao..but when she saw miie,she alight and chase after miiehahax.den after we took shutle bus tuhh townwalk around far east there and finally bought moii baghahax..it wasnt that nice lahx..but no choice lorcause thats the nicest bag ii saw todae..haiix.so sadanyway todae friendster went abit crazy furr miiewent in saw gort new msg,new testii and frnz request..after doing everything finish,another frenz requesthaiyo like so busy like that can..hahax...moii leg ishx damm fucking pain ii swearii walk nearly like the whole day..omg lahx..hmm...shall blog more tml lahx..take care ppl<3<3
9:45 PM
todae have bbq..quite fun lahx.but it rain.siianxden after went tiong tuhh meet the bimbos.hahaxthey were damm bimbo ii swear..cannot tahan themhahax..den after dunnoe what happen lahx...everyone like having black face..omg can..hmm..saw jiali and her cliques at tiong..so cool lahx..hmm...after they went hhome liao..hahax..wanted tuhh go back east coast there derhh.,but in the end decide tuhh go home lahx.so siianzden halfway home someone msg miie..hahaxwas damm happy but sad too..haiix..nvm shall nort say le lahx..if not later ii cry agaiinhmm..just now ii was flooding tricia and wendy..tricia say if ii can flood her 1000 she call miie ahmaand guess what..ii flood her 1137 testii.hahax..bbut ii noe she was joking..i'm still her mummy ya.anyway ii lurbb moii nuer so much lahx..<3<3now so siianz..tml going bugis tuhh shop.hahaxhope ii can purchase somehting home lahx...if nort will be verii siianz derhh..hahax..hmm....ming ask miie tuhh blog about the world..so lamehmm.todae the weather so nice and cooling..euu ppl wan noe a secret anot??hmm.....the earth ishx round euu noe??hahax...ii noe its lame lahx..but whatever..ii dun care.hmm.den the world having alot of fighting lahx..so unhealthy lifestyle..must be like miie lahx..peace maker..everywhere ii go will have peace derhhhahax..ii noe verii bhb lahx..but this ishx miiethink thats all le bahx..looking forward furr tml<3
1:00 AM
Friday, April 21, 2006
todae in school was so siianz lahx.haiixchinese class was suppose tuhh be funbut it sux in the end lahx..so idiot lahx.cher say whuu never bring books must standbut ii hack care lahx..so ii was sitting downbut whuu noes liling so damm ass lahx.sarbo miieden in the end ii have tuhh stand.wth lor.hahaxanyway todae have some bazar thing lahx..it was so siianz ii swear..did help out abit lahx..ii did nort spend alot of money lahx..hahaxcause ii gort food furr free and stuff furr free too.hahax..tricia nuer bought miie mother day presenthahax..she so nice riitex??hahax..lurbb euu ya<3liling bought miie stuff too..thanks alright..dun be sad le..must cheer up alright... =)oh and ii gort wet thanks tuhh germaine ya..hahaxbut it was fun playing with them lahx..ya.hmm.....they are like a bunch of bimbos.hahax..okiies..after everything went tiong with tricia and xuewenii so lurbb them lahx..they were so funny.hahaxii lurbb moii nuer and moii horny bitch<3..hahaxokies.i'm tired liao..ii niid a rest right now..shall blog more tml lahx..take care ppl...<3<3
11:12 PM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Todae was damm fun in school lahx..hahaxrecess time went hall tuhh play badminton..guess everyone was laughing at miiie lahxcause the way ii play ishx verii funny.. ya yaafter school stay back furr syf..damm sucksmr francis keep looking at our side here..den down there keep scolding and stuff.ishx like we never even do anything lahx..so assthis school realii suxks lahx..hate the schooltodae saw lynn and germaine dance..hahaxthey realii shake lahx..wa so sexy siia..somemore dun wan admit they are sexy.hmm..after syf went tiong with xuewen,tricia and lilingslack at long john there.waited furr daddy tuhh comeand finally she came..so asshole lahx..make miie waitbut lucky xuewen was there tuhh accompany miiethanks horny bitch...ii lurbb euu worxzx..hahax..<3anyway todae was quite a happy day lahx.. ya yanow trying tuhh type happy things in moii blog..if nort later tia sae read moii blog verii depressing.hahaxthink thats all le bahx..take care everyone..<3<3
10:34 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
todae ii saw euu*..it was so sad alright..haiix
went home and think alot of stuff agaiin.
and ii decided tuhh let euu go..i'm sorriie..
maybe ii hurt euu or maybe ii dun.ii dunnoe too
ii just dun wanna hold on anymore..it reali hurts
moii heart just hurts so much..ii wanna breakdown
ii wanna cry out loud.ii hope i'm dead right now
ii hope ii could never ever see euu agaiin..
cause ii hate tuhh see euu in other ppl arms..haiix
ii realii wish euu were mine and forever mine..
how ii wish euu would hold miie tightly in your arms
but ii guess everything was just a dream ii have
euu will never ever see the pain i'm going through
and will never feel the pain too..haiix..
since the dae euu left,ii was already dead..
that night euu realii broke moii heart so much
euu were so evil tuhh make moii heart bleed.haiix
now moii heart ishx shattered into pieces..
ii guess it can never be back tuhh perfect anymore
cause the scars euu left furr miie ishx far too deep
ii just find it so hurting tuhh hhold on..haiix
so ii guess ii should realii learn the word let go..
cause ii realii cant take it anymore..haiix
ii will breakdown anytime right now..
ii noe ii will feel verii hurt if ii let go..
but if ii dun let go,ii might suffer more hurt and pain
ii realii dun wan that..cause ii have enough
the scars euu given miie ishx far tuhh much
its enough tuhh last miie furr life..haiix.. behind those smiles were nothing but tearseverything ishx just too much furr mii tuhh bearthose broken smiles of mine will stay foreverii can never smile happily anymore..haiixthanks furr all those memories euu given miieit will be forever kept in moii heart..this ishx the promise ii make tuhh euu =(
7:32 PM
Monday, April 17, 2006
todae isn't a good dae ii swear..haiixii realii feel so lost riitex now..feeling so stress because of ___ and ___ii dun understand why ii cant solve it??ii dunnoe whuu tuhh chose in the endcause both parties will feel hurt derhh..maybe ii should nort bother abt it bahxwait till the daes come den sae lor.haiixguess can only think this way bahx..yaden about moii daddy derhh thing..haiixii dunnoe why will make until like that.haiyodaddy ar daddy..why so many trouble siiahmm..anyay ii will support euu all the way derhhso dun niid worry okiiess..lurbb euu lahx.and tricia nuer..cheer up alright... =) <3euu noe mummiie will lurbb euu derhh..hahaand euu oso noe ii will be there furr euu riitex..yahmm...and liling euu must cheer up alright..dun always cry cry cry lahx..muz be strong..must be like miie lahx..will nort cry derhh.hehexanyway just take care alright..hehex... <3shall end here ii think..take care ppl..baby xing thanks furr everything okiies..thanks furr being there furr miie..appreciate itDon't speak, seal your lips,please don't say a wordmaybe I won't remember the words I have not heardI see that you're in love, I know it's not with mebut I don't want the truth to haunt my memoryIt's never too late to relight the fireit never stopped burning for methe flame, it never died inside of meHow is it now that I can tell you I love youHow is it only now that it's too lateWhat can I do, the love that we had is torn in twoso you'll take the smiles from all of our years I'll take the tearsI sit and reminisce, of times that we once sharedyou gave me more then lovebut never thought i caremy feelings were all for youalthough it did not showI only told you on the day you let me goIt's never too late to relight the fireit never stopped burning for meThe flame, it never died inside of meeee,babyHow is it now that I can tell you, I love youHow is it only now that it's too latewhat can I do, the love that we had is torn in twoso you'll take the smiles from all of our yearsand I'll take the tearsNow I realise that your no longer minebut I'm hoping the pain will heal in timealthough your leaving, I won't say goodbyebecause I know your here with me inside,now ia be aliveHow is it now that I can tell you i love youhow is it only now that it's too late(to late,to late baby)What can I do the love that we had is torn in twoso you'll take the smiles from all of our yearsand I 'll take the tears
10:55 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
haiix..feeling so siianz riitex now..hmm...slack at home todae..neber go out at allthink ii will just bored tuhh death lahx..anyway liling stop reading moii blog okiiesalways sae read moii blog den will cry!!ii shall ban euu from reading moii blog.hahaxthis few days still okiies furr miie lahx..still feeling sad and confuse lahx..haiixthose 2 ppl realii drive miie crazy siia..hmmm..ii realii dunnoe chose whuu lahx..haiixii just hope nothing will happen lahx..there ishx just so many thing happen in moii lifeits realii verii tiring furr miie lahx..haiixhope someone can be by moii side..but ii guess no one will be there furr miie de.haiixbaby can ii ask euu a question??ii just feel like askingand that ishx whether euu gort lurbb miie beforeit seem like euu only treasure miie when ii leavewhen ii am by your side,euu dun treausure miie.haiixii feel like hating euu but ii just cant bear tuhh hatecause ii noe moii heart still lurbb euu alot.haiixwhen will ii ever learn the word let go..haiixmaybe ii'm stubborn, maybe ii'm naive.ii always think euu were the only one furr miiebut ii was just so wrong..we were nort meant tuhh bewe always quarrel because of small things..and we are always breaking up..haiix..its enoughthis life realii sucks so much..ii hate moii lifewhen can ii realii be back the happy miie againii just miss moii smile so much..haiix..maybe we are just nort fated tuhh be together bahx.maybe letting euu go would be best for us.ii dunnoe would ii be happy with the decision ii makebut ii noe ii just wan euu tuhh be happy.haiix
3:03 PM
Saturday, April 15, 2006
just reach home nort long..so tiredd siiaa.anyway went marrina south tuhh eat..so long never go there eat le lahx..and finally can go le..so happy alright.miie and moii cousin eat alot lahx..hahaxand we keep taking all the chicken.hahaxof course there was some screaming too..cause we were scare of the oil lahx..but we did enjoy ourself there.hahaxanyway todae was quite a fun daae lahx..baby xing..when can ii talk tuhh euu ar??ii gort alot of things tuhh tell euu okiies..faaster come talk tuhh miie okiies..hahax =)anyway tuhh ___. pls dun be silly anymor leits realii nort worth tuhh cut your hand furr miieand more nort worth tuhh cut moii name..so ii hope euu can stop cutting le..ya.haiixanyway everyone around miie pls dun cut leits realii nort nice tuhh cut lor..haiixespecially leaving all the scars on the hand..ii now abit regret lahx..cause its so ugly lorthe scars on moii hand realii sucks alright.haiix[baby ii guess its time tuhh bid goodbye][ii dun niid euu in moii life anymore]]
12:39 AM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
this few days haven been so stress furr miie.
getting into so many shit thing lahx.haiix
plus gort in between ____ and _____
ii realii dunnoe what tuhh do..so stress
dunnoe whuu tuhh chose oso..ii hate moiiself
ii just hate everything that happen right now.
ii feel like dying right now..i'm serious ya
this year like a sad year furr miie okiies..
everything oso make miie so sad..haiix
ii wonder when can ii smile again..
everytime ii laugh and play but everything ishx fake
in fact inside,i'm realii hurt..haiix
when can moii heartx realii recover.haiix
when can aall this hurt stop finding miie??
ii realii dunnoe what ii wan now..haiix
9:23 PM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
ytd was toking tuhh tricia over the phone..haiix..it was like a sad dae furr both of us.tricia was crying ovr the phone.poor hercheer up alright??mummiie lurbb euu ya.and we were listening tuhh all the sad song.ii keep on hearing jie kou lahx..haiixthis song realii brings back alot of memoriies.haiix..after putting down the phone with tricia,ii cry lahx..cause ii cannot take it anymore.whenever ii hear this song,ii will think alot of thingsmemoriies will just keep flashing back..haiixii try verii hard tuhh stop thinking of euu.but ii just cannot..haiix.ii just feel so hurt.ii realii wann tuhh breakdown right now..haiixanyway just change moii blog song.haiixthis song make miie cry tuhh..haiix..wo haii ji de wo men de yue ding..haiixuntil now ii still remember what euu promise miieeuu sae euu will always be by moii side..and euu will never ever leave miie..haiixwas everything a lie that euu sae tuhh miie.ppl ishx saying promise are meant tuhh be brokenbut ii did nort believe in that..because ii know that euu will nort break promisebut ii guess ii was verii wrong..haiix..but euu have proven everything tuhh miie..euu proven that promise are meant tuhh be broken.wo de xing zhen de hao tong hao tong.ii realii wanna breakdown right now..haiixthanks tuhh those ppl whuu concern abt miie.
4:15 PM
Saturday, April 08, 2006
this few days nort verii happy abt things lahx
just feel so stress right now..ii wan tuhh breakdown
and the stupid asshole school give miie trouble
the teachers are all against miie lahx..wth.
seriously ii hate school right now..haiix
den plus on the other hand she*hurt miie..haiix
when can all this pain stop finding miie..
ii realii cannot take it anymore le.so stressful
must ii realii give up on her?must ii let go.
ii know she dun lurbb miie anymore le..
so ii think ii should try tuhh give up bahx.haiix
though it hurts but ii guess ii gort no choice
haiix..ii just dun feel nice right now.haiix
shall blog more tonight or tml bahx.haiix
as ii going tuhh get ready tuhh go out le.
12:13 PM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
todae school damm sux lahx..so damm ass.gort scolding from miss phee agaiin.haiixshe sae all moii frenz are drop out lahx..den say what ii wan continue studyingishx because ii scare tuhh get kick out of schooland be a drop out like moii those frenz.ishx like wth lahx..haiya whatever okiies nvm lahx..slowly will get use tuhh it de!the teachers are like all against miie lahx.just because of 1 bitch!haiix..well nvm lahxmaybe everything ishx ii deserve it de lor..whuu ask miie ishx a bitch..so no choice lahx.but ii can say ii will have hard time in schoolii told moii father what happen todae..haiixden he like aabit dun care de..so nvm lahx.ii noe he kind of give up on miie liao..as ii'm gone case now..or maybe useless bahx.anyway ii just hate school so much right nowthe only thing ii lurbb ishx moii frenz..thats all.if moii frenz ishx nort in this school,ii swear ii will quit school right now siia..haiixii just dun like th school and ii hate studying.anyway everything just go so wrong right now.ii niidd her tuhh be with miie right now..haiixbut why ishx it always someone else and nort herii truly miss her so much.ii hope she knows lahx.ii guess she already move on le bahx...haiixand ii'm still waiting furr her tuhh come back.am ii verii silly tuhh wait furr her??haiixshould ii move on too or should ii stay?i'm confuseall ii noe ishx that ii realii do lurbb her alotii realii cant bear tuhh let go everything.haiixmaybe ii shall leave everything tuhh fate bahx.haiix[baby euu noee how much ii lurbb euu][euu should noee ii will never let euu go][so pls come back,ii niid euu with miie]
11:56 PM
Monday, April 03, 2006
just came back not long lahx..haiix..so sad
went tiong tuhh eat le den go home..haiix
todae parents went tuhh school.damm ass
they actually help the bitch lahx.haiix*
they say everything ishx ii started first de.
whatever lahx..ya ya everything moii fault
nort that bitch fault.can only blame myself!!
that ting ting thing oso moii fault ya..
everything that goes wrong ishx all moii fault
ii now only hope they charge miie too lahx
cause ii feel bad that clarice kanna charge.haiix
daddy i'm realii so sorriiee tuhh euu lahx.haiix
since miss phee and everyone sae ishx moii fault
so why nort put the charge only on miie.
seriously ii dun mind getting into girls home.
as long as ii can save moii daddy ii dun mind
so ii hope they will charge miie siia..whatever.
anyway ii just realisee something lahx.haiix
feeling so sad and disappointed in her*...
dunnoe is it reali she betray miie..haiix
ii realii do hope ii know the answer ya.hmm..
anyway this fucking school sux alright.haiix
ii wan quit school lahx.but too bad lor
ii cannot pangseh tricia as ii promise her
that we will 2 work hard together derhhx.
so no matter what oso muz stay!so ya..
anyway ii hate moii parents,teacher and school
ii hate myself too..ii hate her* too lahx
because of this matter,ii so stress can..
now ii learnt a new lesson le.haiix
and that ishx never trust someone..haiix
ii now seriously dun trust anyone anymore le.ya
anyway furget it lahx..its over liao.. sometimes ii reali feel like breakingdownii wanna cry my whole heart out.haiixii niid her* here with miie right nowbut does she know ii nidd her now??haiixeverything ishx just too much furr miie tuhh bearii hope someone would be there furr miie..but whuu would be there??haiix..[ii just wanna sae ii miss euu baby][would euu pls come back tuhh miie?]
10:11 PM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
feeling so sleepy right now lahx..but no choice
bcause ii gort tuhh pray moii ah ma.so ya
haiix..ytd was realii a bad daee ii swear!!
i'm truly sorriie tuhh her*i'm realii sorriiee
ii didn't mean tuhh make euu tears at all.
but maybe letting miie go would be best furr euu.
ii dunnoe why euu lurbb miie so much
when i'm just nothing but a bitch!haiix.
ii feel guilty right now..haiix..i'm sorriiee
ii noe ii hurt euu and ii dun feel nice abt it.
ii realii wanna breakdown right now.haiix
cause everything ish too much furr miie tuhh bear
moii heart really cannot take it anymore..
i'm nort putting the blame on you or anything.so dun feel bad or cut your hand anymore.haiixcause if you cut your hand,euu only make miie worseso pls ii beg euu.pls dun cut anymore!!haiixso many thing just happen lahx..so stress now..and no one can even help miie at all!haiixii realii dunnoe what ii wan right now..haiix..nvm lahx..ii hope euu furget miie.cause i'm nort worth it..i'm a bitch!ya..haiixtodae recieve another hurt by you!i'm hurtii feel like crying but tears just dun come downmaybe ii realii dun understand euu at all.euu ask miie dun be like this.but what can ii dohaiix..ii realii dunnoe whats wrong right now..ii realii wanna breakdown right now.haiixmemories of us keep flashing back.haiixand baby euu muz know something.ii miss euuii reali do miiss euu.ii wan euu back.ii wan euu back in moii life.ii niid euu baby.anyway tml niid go back school.fuck ii hate itseriously ii hate school alright..haiix..i niid more rest..ii reali do.i'm just so tiredtired of everything that ish happening right now.ii wan tuhh transfer school oso.ii reali feel likebut ii doubt can transfer out le...haiix.nvmjust have tuhh bear a few more years lahx.haiix
12:22 AM