Sunday, December 31, 2006
later going countdown with baby and family!todae sux shhoo muchh ii swear.haiixii dunnoe whyy but ii just dunn like at all!baby baby where are euu??ii miss euu plswhyy euu havenn wake up yet!!!rawr! :((ytd ii was shhoo sorriie baby!!ii dint noe ii cause euu shhoo muchh painforgive miie hao marhhxz.i'm sorriieperhaps its time ii should learn!i'm nrot perfect enough furr euuand she cann always make euu smile!!just be happiie thats all i'm asking okiies.ii just wann say ii lurbb euu baby!<33but baby no matter what happennii would still lurbb euu with all moii heartbe strong and nort weak anymore alrihgt!ii say before ii cann wei le ni give upand ii reali do mean it derhh worxz.though euu dun believe what ii say,its alrihgt derhh.cause 1 day euu will believeii dunn wann euu tuhh fall again!cause it hurts shhoo muchh.sigh i'm sorriie!
1:43 PM
Saturday, December 30, 2006
todae went out with baby,steph and bernice
went novena tuhh collect miie and steph payy!
omg was quite happiie when ii gort the pay lahhx
cause first time work marhhxz.hehex :))
going out with baby this few days.hehex :))
was fun pls.cause baby entertain miie lahhx!
this silly seal baby of mine ishhx shhoo shhoo cute!
ii lurbb baby shhoo shhoo muchh.hahax!
baby ii hope euu mean what euu say okiies?
the promise that euu make tuhh miie?hehex
and pls dun ever hide things from miie aniimore! :((
baby ii just wanna say ii realii realii do lurbb euu
and ii just wanna be with euu forever<33
ii guess ii dint tell euu how muchh euu mean tuhh miie?
baby euu are like the whole world tuhh miie
without euu,ii guess it will be the dead miie!
euu brought light into moii life baby!
ii just lurbb euu shhoo shhoo muchh.
ii wont make euu angry aniimore alrihgt?
and ii promise ii wont leave euu derhh.
even if euu leave miie,ii would still wait
cause without euu,i'm nothing at all!muacks baby!
thanx furr letting miie stay beside euu!
1:03 AM
Monday, December 25, 2006
merry christmas everyone!!! :))todae christmas party was kind of boring!cause everyone was hell drunk pls.some ended up crying too.sigh its saddening sometimes see them shoo sad,ii oso feel sad furr them lahhx.sigh!! :((cause ii cann understand the pain they havingthis year recieve quite little present :((and ii dun even have christmas mood pls!rawr!thanx furr those ppl that cheer miie upand wish miie too.ii appreciate it alot :))school reopen soonn liao.shoo sad plsii still haven decide what ii wann now lahhxii just dunn wann tuhh go back stc plsthough alot keep asking miie go backbut ii dun think ii will lahhx.rawr!!maybe shall talk tuhh moii father againabout miie going private school.hehexokiies enough of studies liao lahhx :))make miie feell shoo headache lahhx.perhaps ii am selfish bahhx.sigh!ii dunnoe whyy ii am jealous cause of thatii thought ii gort over it already??sighperhaps ii just scared things repeat againii just dun wanna lose euu anymorecause ii lose euu once.and it sux shoo muchhgive miie some time tuhh get over itmaybe 1 day ii will nort be like this anymoreii just dun wanna cry anymorecause ii hate those sad days ii haveii choose tuhh walk forward and nort look backcause those were hurting memories furr miieii just wanna be the happiie miieand yes no point getting jealous over her*cause when ii think backii would think its a verii silly thing!sherlyn just wake up and face realitydun wander in your own world anymore!!cause ii noe life without euuwould mean the end of miie
2:47 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
todae will be the last dayy ii in singapore llerhhs
denn afterr ii going holiday liao.haiix!! :((
ii dunn wann go at all pls.ii told moii mother ytd
but end up ii get scolding and guess what??!
she even threaten tuhh send miie tuhh girls home
ii realii cant bear cant bear tuhh leave babyy!
ii will be missing him shoo shoo damm muchh pls!
going there ii wont enjoy at all lahhz.rawr!! :((
that time biie biie go furr 4 days only
and ii alreadyy miss him like crazyy liao lahhx
somemore now ii going furr 1 week leii.sighh!
ii am worriied furr baby lahhx.haiix
oh well ii realii hope ii dunn niid go lahhx
ii realii dunn wann tuhh leave biie biie alone
neither ii wann biie biie tuhh leave miie! :((
how cann ii go holidays without anii worriies??
sigh sigh sigh!!ii hate everything shoo muchh.
bimbo pls cheer up alrihgt??ii noe euu are sad
dun pretend euu are okiies if euu are nrot ya??
cause pretending wont do any much help.
do what euu think its right and follow your heart
ii dunn wann tuhh see euu regret alrihgt?
must be happiie and smile!no more tears ya :))
biie biie when ii go cannot naughty okiies??
must be a good boy worxz.rmb what euu promise?
cannot do unfaithful things behind moii back!!
anyywayy biie biie must be strong hao marhhxz
must wait furr miie come back oso okiies??
ii will come back verii soonn derhh hao marhhx
must take care of yourself worxz.hehex
take care baby 2 oso worxz.if nrot ii kill euu :((
ii will miss euu like hell derhh okiies??
when ii nort in singapore must take care of yourself
1:58 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
todae biie biie ishhx coming backk llerhhs!yay!!
shoo happiie pls.finally cann see him liao
ishhx like afterr waitingg furr shhoo longg
denn now finally cann see him liao.hehexz!
without biie in moii life,ii aint that strong!
those few days ii was shhoo damm weak pls
ytd ii cryy agaiin.ii couldnt take it anymoree
always when ii see the msg biie send miie
asking miie tuhh be strong ii just tears.. :((
cause ii noe without him,ii cant be strongeuu dunn have tuhh be perfect furr miie
cause i'm nort perfect enough furr euu
ii noe that this fairtytales of ours will last
and ii dintt regret knowing euu in the first place
euu walked into moii life,
and give miie the happiness that ii wanted
without euu in moii life,
moii life would be shhoo incomplete!
euu gave miie everything that ii wanted baby
and furr now ii just wann a little hug from euu
and ii would be happiie furr the rest of the day
loving euu ishhx the greatest thing
that ii ever had in moii life baby! ii lurbb euubaby ii just wanna be someone special in your heart
whuu will always be there with euu
and wipe away the tears that euu drop
because ii lurbb euu shhoo muchh
and ii just dunn wanna let go anymore
cause in moii heart,
euu are like the whole world furr miie
1:52 PM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
I'd give up tomorrow to love you endlessly babyI'm wishing that you could hold me like you did beforetime ishhx passing shho slowlly pls.haiix!
ii am just missingg hiim shho muchh lahhx! :((
ytd liling was damm niicee lahhx.hahass
she peii miie go ktv.cause mark ask miie go worxz
denn ii drink a few cups llerhhs denn went off
liling came moii hse and drink lahhxz.cool right?
and ii swearr we bothh driink untill damm drunk
ii vomited 2 time lahhx.hopee biie biie was there
miie and liling mix 2 alcohol together and drink pls
total around 83% bahhx.denn we drink alot siia.
perhaps drinking do make miie forget moii sorrow!
but the feeling wasnt nice at all pls.haiix! :((
denn afterr we bothh went home llerhhs.
denn ii went into moii toilet and vomit agaiinn.
and guess what.ii drunk until ii slp in toilet??
denn ii think ii knock myself or something bahhx
gort 1 blue black blue black on moii hand
liling say its internal bleeding.its painful lahhx :((
haiix ii niid biie biie shho damm muchh lahhx.
denn ii couldnt slp at all pls.ii slept around 3 plus??
denn ii woke up at around 6 plus.damm early pls
denn start tuhh have headache and everything.hmmm
okiies ii dunn wann blog anymore llerhhs.haiixii am just missing him shhoo muchh lahhx.
ii just hope he cann hurry come back pls
ii am shhoo shhoo tired of crying llerhhs.haiix
after the dayy he left,ii have been crying non-stop
and ii always cry myself tuhh slp pls.haiix :((
drinking makes miie feel better at least.
but its shhoo damm uncomfortable lahhx.haiix
biie ii just wann euu tuhh noe ii lurbb euu shoo muchh
hao ii wish we cann be together forever!
but cann we??will euu willingly tuhh walk with miie?I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide itand so I surrender just to hear your voice
8:05 PM
Monday, December 04, 2006
todae mondayy llerhhs.ii shoo hate todae!
biie went oversea lerhhs.haiix :((
ii am supposed tuhh wait furr biie derhh
but end up ii fall asleep.moii fault pls
ii sms him at 5 plus denn after no more llerhhs
ii fall asleep.rawr!hate myself shoo muchh
cry tuhh slp last niitex.sad lahhx.haiix
ytd just went out with biie only. :((
okiies life furr miie will be shoo hard lahhx.
those cuts were furr euu.
ii just dun wanna leave euu anymore
cause the pain was much more denn this :((
ii am missing biie biie shoo muchh now
hope cann see him now now now!!
ii noe he still haven forget her yet
and ii noe he still like herr.
but what cann ii do??haiix
everyone ask miie tuhh give up on him
but cann ii??do ii bear?haiix
everyone say ii deserve a better 1
but ii dun wann anyone else except him
ii just wann biie in moii life! :))
but if he realii cant forget her
denn what do ii do??give up marhhx?
ii realii dunnoe oso.haiix :((
but no matter what ii will still trust him
he say he dun like/lurbb her llerhhs
ii will believe in everything he say
even if its no true,ii wont wan tuhh noe
cause ii just wann biie thats all
as long as he ishhx happiie.
ii would be happiie too
1:26 PM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
later going tuhh work lahhx..shoo idiot pls
ii hate working shoo muchh pls.rawr!!
bimbo and monkey nort working pls.haiix
only darling working and jovy the idiot!
okiies ii think todae ii migh just die pls.
cause ii working 6-10 lahhx.haiix
confirm will drag the timing derhh lor.
always like that derhh.haiix! :((
getting moii pay llerhhs.happie happie
first time earning money myself.hahax
proud of myself pls.hahax but veri tired
ii might be quitting llerhhs.hahax
christmas ishhx coming.happiie happiie
and its shopping time lahhx.shoo happie
must no money lahhx pls.rawr!!
okiies everyone ishhx going oversea lahhx
going tuhh miss everyone ii guess
but ii guess him* more.haiix
this road ishhx nort easy tuhh walk its true
but ii would still try moii best tuhh walk finish
ii wont give up.ii just wanna be with him
but does he noe??does he care?haiix :((
ii just wanna say ii lurbb him shoo muchh
life without him going tuhh be sux.
and ii noe about it.haiix but what cann ii do
ishhx he going tuhh give miie a chance
and make everything back again??
or ishhx he going tuhh let go??haiix
ii noe no matter what,ii will still lurbb him
it doesnt matter how muchh he hurt miie
cause as long as he still lurbb miie,
ii realii dun wanna care abt any other thing
moii choice ishhx him and no one else.haiix
euu sayy euu niid time tuhh face everything
hao ii will give euu the time euu wann hao marhhx
ii realii dunn wanna lose euu anymore again.haiix
cause the feeling hurt shoo muchh! :((
1:04 PM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
slept at 7 lahhx.cause ii cant slp!haiixtalk tuhh kor kor and asshole!! :))they cheer miie up lahhx.hmmmmoh and baby duck oso cheer miie.thanks bimbo furr the post in your blogii will listen tuhh what moii heart saypls dun say ii am silly or what alrihgtcause miie myself dunnoe what ii doing it seem like everyone ishhx lying now!it hurts shoo much tuhh see the truth. :((if ii ever have the chance tuhh restartii guess perhaps ii wont choose tuhh starttowards euu ii already no more confident llerhhsii noe crying and cutting wont helpbut other denn that,ii dunnoe what tuhh do liaothis broken heart of mine was once mend backbut now everything ishhx shattered again.bao bao say derhh verii right.haiixif he dun lurbb euu anymore llerhhswhats the point of hanging on.haiixcause euu only will bring more harm tuhh yourselfif euu choose her in the end,ii wont blame euucause ii say before let miie leave hao marhhxii aint feeling nice now.rawwr!!haiixii hate the fucking feeling ii am having nowishhx it realii a mmisunderstanding?or it ishhx the truth?ii choose nort tuhh noecause ii dunn wann tuhh be hurt again.this feeling ishhx worse denn anything.ii try tuhh be happiie and smile alwayssometimes ii just wanted euu tuhh hate miie morebut when ii come tuhh think of itii aint that strong anymore.haiix :((whuu would be there tuhh wipe moii tearswhuu would be there tuhh accompanywhuu would be there tuhh mend back moii heartwould euu be the one i'm waiting furr?or it would be someone else.haiix
12:16 PM
Friday, December 01, 2006
okiies todae ishhx boring pls!rawr!!
dunnoe what tuhh blog oso.haiix
saw daddy todae at great world. :))
omg lahhx.shoo long dint see her llerhs
become more paikia.hahax =)
denn slack at great world furr a while lor
denn went bedok tuhh buy hair dye
dye moii hair again.hmmm!!
think no diff again bahhx.hahax but nvm!
denn after went home lor.hehex
liling damm idiot pls..eyyerr!
ii told her ii wann tuhh drink lahhx
denn she dun wann bring give miie :((
denn slack downstairs hse furr a while
omg damm sway pls.fuck lahhx
ppl throw things at moii head furr 2 time
somemore hit until damm pain pls!
wanted tuhh go find them derhh.butbut
tricia say dun wann lahhx.cause ii alone
thats all furr todae lor.nothing llerhhs
boring rihgt?hahax. :))this time euu ask furr break again!haiixthis shows that euu cann let miie go llerhhshao ii noe euu like her now.haiix :((ii wont stay.ii will leave furr good!ii promiseat least euu finally admit euu like her llerhhshao bahhx if euu like denn go furr it hao marhhx?no matter what ii will support your decision derhh!wo zhi dao yi qie dou shi wo de cuo :((she ishxh better denn miie ii dun deny!shoo ii wish euu and her hao marhhx??because ii noe euu starting tuhh hate miie llerhhsas long as euu are happiie,hate miie furr all euu like.ii wont mind!yi ding shi wo bu gou haoshuo yi ni cai yao li kai wo :((ii already try moii best llerhhs.haiixperhaps what euu say ishhx right bahhxii nort ready tuhh lurbb someone yet!promises are being broken againbut ii wont ask furr much anymoreas long as euu are happiie,nothing matters anymore. :((wo zheng de heng xiang aii niidan shi ni bu zai aii wo leii hope ii gort a penknife right now!RAWR!!ii am feeling shoo shoo shoo sad insidethis kind of feeling ishhx worse denn death!whats the point of crying??haiixsherlyn ishhx nothing but a bitch!she lost this battle tuhh someone else :((perhaps she will treat euu better denn miiememories still remain in miiebut the old miie will be gone.
2:45 AM
